SOS...extreme boredom..., post op: day 4

still in bed about 70% of the day. still sooooo tired and sooooo bored and unable to focus on anything super long bc i'm just so sluggish. tiktok and those live videos of the hamster gyms are my best friend at this point. in good news, i left the house today with my family for lunch. by the end was i falling asleep and kind of shaking? yes. that's between me and god. it was nice to get out of the house. hopefully in the future i can leave with more energy and attempt an average day. at lunch, i had the smallest amount of prosecco and started shaking and sweating like a little rabid dog. it was insane. a beautiful sign that moving slowly is the right way to go, and to hold off of anything that's too fun for a little while longer.

nisipisa, a youtuber my friend calls her older sister figure despite being an only child, has an amazing video called getting a breast reduction: the full story (H-D cup) and at about 16:55 she has a short vlog clip from her day 4 post-op and she's right on the money about everything. my boobs are rock hard and nasty, i 110% agree abt wanting to be put in a cryogenic freeze until post-op (july 13 hehe) and wanting to have a normal day with this cool new body so bad. she has such a nice way of talking, it feels conversational. i cannot put into words how much her videos have helped me lay back and feel like i'm engaging with someone else when i'm stuck in bed.

cut off the oxycodone as of 8pm last night and it's going well. tylenol every 8hrs still. both yesterday and this morning my mom has asked me if i want to go on a walk, both times i have offered her a very very quick "NO". it's not that i don't want to (ok yes. i don't want to, but she's worried 'i'll forget how to walk'. i'm still walking around the house absolutely fine) and it's like...girl...let me rest. yes, i know i'm bored and whining and absolutely complaining but the best thing i can do is lay down some more.

weed advice: going to wait until 2wpo (july 19) to vape/smoke anything. last night at around 3am i fished out a disposable cart from some college stuff to realize it's watermelon skittlez flavored. i am proud of myself for acknowledging that i should probably wait till i'm a bit more healed to put my lungs at that level of risk. there's no way that thing is legit. but goddamn if i won't smoke it eventually. edibles i will hooopefully try sometime this week. easing myself into the weed bc i am nothing if not a weed girlie and a full 2 month t break has gotten close to wearing me down but i'm a fighter. i'm just built different. ya know. i'll just keep being built different until my tits no longer feel like they're built out of titanium and scarring's beginning (bc any kind of smoking impacts ur healing yadayadayada).