my friend has been witnessing a genocide of her people for the past month. i told her that her rage is important, because it is. her family came to the states when her mother was pregnant with her and she shared a story of her experience as an 'anchor baby'. at age 6 performing on tests that helped her family to stay in the country and prove that this little girl could be a good American. in high ... » Continue Reading
finished the news article which was quite fun T_T but now it's back 2 thesis work where i feel overwhelmed and frustrated with where i'm at. deep breaths. its more afraid of me than i am of it. i fucking guess. the top priority in my planner this week is just get to friday . that i can do! :) » Continue Reading
have not worked on my thesis since weds :) it is sunday :) i have been so busy though and every day i have woken up in a rush to get somewhere. this morning(!!!!) was the first day i could wake up and Sit In Bed For More Than Five Minutes before getting on with the day. i savored it lmao. this is what i need more of. anyways. i'm back to doing work today. there's this dumb fucking form i have to f... » Continue Reading
im doing so much nothing and it's wonderful B) so much work all the time!!!!! i went to pride today and it was a great time :] the friends i went with also invited me to a weekly game night last night and i stayed in and studied instead T-T i'm glad i did though!!! bc then i wasn't worried about it today and could go out. i took a nap and did some laundry when we got back this afternoon, it was so... » Continue Reading
tonight's rec: Grateful Dead - Terrapin Station/Estimated/Eyes/NFA/GDTRFB/Around and Around - 5/26/77 Baltimore, MD this and some wonderful zotero annotating and going braless 7 weeks out post-surgery. and the company of my beloved dab pen » Continue Reading
ideally? i sit on the periphery and watch the club burn. in actuality? one of my close friends is a house mate of the person who a little crew of cast outs has an interest in taking down a peg. and i don't want to see her upset or play a role in making her living situation hell. there's a way you should treat people - with dignity and respect - but it's in murky territory when "I think we should k... » Continue Reading
resting in a hotel on the turnpike. first leg of the drive back out to school complete in one fell three and a half hour swoop. no stops. 1. August 2020 what a nightmarish time to be entering college! that's my very first thought on all this! i had the nice father-daughter drive out, he could not enter the building and it was an awkward but emotional send off. after a covid wave on campus, i was h... » Continue Reading
the mid year freakout tag (my 2023 reading stats so far) Jack in the Books this seemed like a fun list to make and i'm impressed by how much i've committed to reading this year. it's been a great way to get out of my head. i have some good options to choose from here already. hehe. 1. Best book you've read so far. Pachinko by Min Jin Lee 2. What is th » Continue Reading
scrolling on tiktok. taylor swift LA night one live feed. she's doing some kind of dance during willow. i am absolutely enamored. trying to pay attention is so confusing and the audio quality leaves a lot to be desired. last summer, my friend got 2 high and ended up on a tiktok live feed in the minutes after prime minister shinzo abe's assassination as news was breaking. very different stakes. but... » Continue Reading
classes start 2 weeks from today. the very rational part of my mind is sure i will show up ready in two weeks time and the nerves will feel more anticipatory. right now it's just a little bit of dread. 4 weeks post op today! got a pretty nice routine going, more walking but still lots of rest. i feel really good, it is like a key i've been given to unlock a new way to carry myself. i've balanced b... » Continue Reading
Barbie (2023) spoilers here are three different stories that inspired this post: 1. the final project made by a friend of mine in our "documentary film-making" course last fall where she made a video essay comparing how spider-man: into the spider-verse and doctor strange and the multiverse of madness use the multiverse as a plot device. and explaining just how much better spider-verse is than doc... » Continue Reading
FRIDAY NIGHT... this is a precursor to a longer blog eventually when i have some energy. went on a girls trip 2 da beach w some close friends i have not seen all year! an hour in and i got dumped via text message. it's OK. we go out we get wasted it's wonderful. we end up at a karaoke bar. i faceplant on stage in an attempt to rush back from the bathroom in time after our song started. we ended up... » Continue Reading