"i actually have no clue what i'm doing anymore"
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hello diary!! yesterday i left my laptop at my school and didn't feel like writing out a whole diary... but yesterday was actually a nice day. for the first time in a long time, i wasn't distracted by anything, i wasn't extremely tired, and i wasn't yelled at when i got home. so i did some studying and that was that. it felt good to have clarity and focus... getting lost in purely mental work. tod... » Continue Reading
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hey diary, today i: got up at 7:00 and left the house at 7:10 (on time!) got to school and got distracted accomplished few things had a fun jam with a drummer friend at lunch worked on music stuff for school went to rehearsals for aforementioned school got home ate dinner with family. dad having health issues but honestly i'm just glad it distracts him from me. spent some time sett » Continue Reading
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in short, my mom is the nice one. she actually loves me and attempts to empathize with me. there is no questioning any aspect of those statements. however, she also loves my dad. i can not reveal myself to my dad. therefore, i never have the opportunity to talk to my mom about how i'm doing, what i'm going through, etcetera. i also hate being in the same room as my dad, whereas my mom is married ... » Continue Reading
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hey diary, today i: woke up at 7 and left the house at 7:10 (on time!) got texts from my mom to worry less, be happier, and that she prayed for me yesterday. thinking about this makes me want to cry. spent the morning doing a pre-lab assignment that i should've done the night before. stats class was nice. feels good to be good at something ... went to a college class only to discover the professor... » Continue Reading
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hello! i am writing this at 5:47 pm on 2/25 for reasons that will reveal themselves as you read further. yesterday i: woke up at 6:55 and left the house at 7:10 (on time!) wore a cool outfit (shorts over pants) played piano first period was cool, we had an amusing discussion about birkenstock's trying to get copyright for their sandals the rest of the school day was a matter of endurance did some ... » Continue Reading
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hey diary, today i: got up at 8 having slept at 2 and immediately listened to woke up today by jacob collier because i felt a lot better. even though i slept less i also got the chance to wake up naturally. i also think the neurotransmitters were definitely a lot more balanced that morning because i didn't wake up feeling like i didn't want to exist. went to church. i'm not very catholic but i go ... » Continue Reading
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hello! today is the 23rd. i didn't do one for the 22nd. yesterday i: driving lesson with dad ate breakfast with my family worked on chord charts for school nap attempted to record some music nap i don't really remember what happened here got some food cried on video tried and failed to produce music played some guitar terrible end to a terrible week. let's s » Continue Reading
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hey, maybe they're not as sick as skirt over pants. to me that will always be the most epic combo. but they definitely have a more bold and casual character. jorts over patchwork pants with miku tshirt and leather bag! and some cool bracelets ca » Continue Reading
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dear diary, today i: woke up late missed the bus to school had to wait for my mom to take me got yelled at by dad for not replying to emails. i was trying to do it last night but i was way too tired. why do i have to exchange emails with my own dad... played some guitar at school before class almost cried all the way till the end of my first class endured some mid school stuff discovered some la » Continue Reading
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hey diary, i write this in bed because i am physically too fatigued to sit up in a chair. today i: got up at 7:05 and left the house at 7:10 wore the thrifted prom dress to school today! studied for a test endured the school day and took the test listened through the setlist for my school's next show and made a spreadsheet for keyboard parts made some keyboard patches (like synths and stuff) laid ... » Continue Reading
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hey diary, today was difficult in a meaningful way. last night i actually slept at 4:30 a.m because i stayed up having a super fruitful conversations with a friend while sorting through a 'relationship red flags tierlist.' obviously the list itself was silly and we recognized the flaws inherent to red flags and ranking them on a list like that, but many of them led to really meaningful debate. my... » Continue Reading
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