"is there a cooler way to say listening to music"
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so PDA stands for pathalogical demand avoidance and its a profile of autism and i think i have it. it manifests in weird ways but it actually makes so much sense to me. every time i learn something knew about the way it affects people, it unlocks a new memory from my childhood that got conditioned out of me. but when i remember, it makes me want to act that way again and i really dont want to. it ... » Continue Reading
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im doing great in all of my classes except for english i literally sabatoge myself in there. ive fully ignored two essays this year and i skipped class yesterday so i wouldnt have to do a speech. so obviously i have an f. LMAO (this is a cry for help what the fuck do i do) im not even bad at the actual work i just fucking despise doing it for classes and i dont even know why. i need an interventio... » Continue Reading
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i dont think i would be so uncomfortabke with hugs if i didnt have boobs. i always think the other person can feel it it makes me way too aware if my height too. like i dont want ti hate hugging my cousin but it never feels good because hes so much taller than me it makes me feel small and girlish i just wanna be one of thr guys with him. its even harder when my dad is there because my cousin has ... » Continue Reading
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FUCK YEAHHHHHHHH its in a small local zine for trans kids and im gonna be in the first issue!!!!! IM SO FUCKING EXCITED BROS i never thought i would care so much about writing let alone having it being acknowledged but here i am BEING AC » Continue Reading
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ive lived in one place my entire life and somehow my town still feels like it isnt my home. a fucking up combination of autism and transgenderism and whatever else i can name made it so that i couldnt connect with anyone when i was young, and i didnt even realize it wasnt supposed to be like that. its only been the last year or maybe less that ive felt a sort of injustice about it. there are peop... » Continue Reading
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for a long time now ive really been wanting to get involved in my towns local music scene but the problem is there is literally none. theres like two people in a band at my school, my best option is a few small venues in the city next to my town. but today i said fuck it and decided to scour the internet for any trace of music from my state and boy did i find it my friend sent me a local punk zine... » Continue Reading
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i applied to a few trans poetry journals last month and one of then rejected me within a week and i still dont have a response from the other one :(( i didnt care about getting published until i had a teacher get personally invested in what i did with my work and now i almost feel like im letting them down even though they definitely wouldnt think that. just today i submitted my work to another z... » Continue Reading
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a teensy weensy poem about the trans genocide More than Death, More than Survival » Continue Reading
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sooo yeah i got in a car crash this morning on the way to school the whole thing feels so surreal to think about. it definitely could have been worse but its crazy to me that this actually happened like i didnt get injured at all but WHAT i was going straight and a car going the opposite was turning left and neither of us stopped for the other so we hit and yeahhhh. it was so freaky it felt like t... » Continue Reading
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VACANCY Peel off my skin Like you would wet clothes After dancing in the rain. Climb into my ribcage, Make a home in my heart. There's already a space for you there HOLDING ON TO WHAT IS NOT THERE I want to hoard your bones Like a dragon her treasure. Give myself time to grieve The fact that yourself alive and yourself dead Mean the same to me. (sooo yeah these r both older poe » Continue Reading
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ive been so so tired for the last few weeks ive been so fucking tired all day all time i couldnt do anything to ge my energy back. like i couldnt figure out what was different until i realized its because i havent been able to go to clubs and see my friends lately because my favorite teacher has been pretty much MIA. i never thought i was an extrovert because i never realized how much extra energy... » Continue Reading
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