car crash lmao

sooo yeah i got in a car crash this morning on the way to school the whole thing feels so surreal to think about. it definitely could have been worse but its crazy to me that this actually happened like i didnt get injured at all but WHAT

i was going straight and a car going the opposite was turning left and neither of us stopped for the other so we hit and yeahhhh. it was so freaky it felt like there was so much time between when i knew we were gonna hit and when we finally hit and then when i finally got out of the car. for some reason i decided to pause my music before getting out LMAO. one of my ears lost hearing for a few minutes and i can still imagine the smell of the little but of smoke. after that my hand felt fucking electric my nerves were on fire and i def cried. did you guys know ghat airbags break your steering wheel  bc i didnt and i learned that today

since the front of my car was the part that was hit there was absolutely no driving that shut lmao so my car was blocking traffic for a while there were so many cars built up and probably a lot of people watching me LMAO thats so weird

it happened on the first day of my school’s state testing so i just skipped it today but that means i have to make it up later…. EW. i tried to go to my normal classes tho but i skipped most of the morning and totally ran out of energy after lunch so i went home and napped. (fun fact i can make myself fall asleep easier if i listen to a metal album that i havent heard before i have NO IDEA why that makes me so sleepy but it does so i fell asleep to of mice and men lol)

i had to give a statement to my dads insurance and it was SO FUCKING STRESSFUL it was recorded so i felt like i couldnt say anything wrong but i had my dad there in case i forgot shit. you also have to be so careful not to blame yourself in any way at all so that you dont screw yourself and get charged more but i got it over with lol. 

i was thinking about all the stuff that was left in my car when it got towed and thankfully i didnt have to wait until tomorrow to get everything i was able to go to the car lot and round everything up. i dont like not having my car its like a loss of autonomy but at least i have the stuff i kept in there. 

now i need to figure out what my next car is gonna be. my dad is considering buying himself a new car and giving me his old one but if not i gotta get a new one and we’re gonna spend more on it than we did before. my car before was like $4000 but it was probably worth less than $1000 bc we learned later it was in a crash before i got it and there were fucking countless things wrong with it we took that baby to the mechanic more times than it was worth. the biggest things were the ignition breaking and the biggest watt fuse in the whole car bursting so the instrument panel didnt tell you anything. 

it feels so weird to just be living life now lol. like rn im hungry but like. i cant just go and get food thats crazy i cant just live. (but also i never like the process if eating so thats kinda normal for me lolz.) 

anyway first long ass blog post BYE