only my two closest friends know what i'm talking about, and i intend to keep it that way. why am i publicly writing about it then? because i need to do it, though i'll try to keep it ambiguous. every year i find myself having the same need, to express myself in some way, even if it's a one liner, but hey! i have this site now, so that's good, i can maybe express myself a bit more now. 2nd of Sept... » Continue Reading
mm is a funny little phone game where for the duration of 11 days you pretend to be part of a group chat with a bunch of guys and another girl, and you get to talk and bond with them as the days go by. its gimmick is that it's tied to irl time, so you have to be awake at certain times to get to talk to the other characters if they happen to be "awake" too, if you aren't then they'll just talk norm... » Continue Reading
i don't really care if this is something we're not supposed to say, the reality is that to me being autistic truly is a disability that hinders me from properly interacting socially, and it's incredibly frustrating. a friend is currently going through a rough time and although i did offer my help if he ever needed it, i'm still so... i don't even know what to do or say. i kept asking my best frien... » Continue Reading
i forgot most of the dream i went out at night to buy something, i think it was food i parked my car, or the car, whatever, dont know whose car it was, and started walking reached a weird looking factory that was supposedly a market inside there were people screaming i went in and across the store, out from the back, into a large field a very large and dark grassy field there a handsome man in a c... » Continue Reading
I still don't have internet, and I still hate writing long stuff with my phone, and I still don't understand why whenever I write in Telegram and copy it elsewhere the font turns out all tiny. Eh, I don't really care enough to change it. Anyway, I dreamt with M again and this time he did have a physical body! ... But my brain made him look like Nicholas Hoult for some reason?? I don't think I've e... » Continue Reading
Before I start, there's something I want to explain since it'll be a recurring topic in my dream journaling, and that is "Who is Balthazar?" The answer is: I don't know. Ever since I was 13, I've been dreaming almost daily with this mysterious man, though back then he was just a boy, half a year younger than me. It all started with a dream where I was being chased by evil men down a well-lit yet e... » Continue Reading