It has been a day since we've been here at the resort. It's a pretty small area but had all main necessities, like toilets and showers. The sleeping areas were pretty good too. It's nothing luxurious though. I don't say this to be a complete asshole but more because I was more familiar with what I thought were "standard" resorts but were actually high-end ones because I didn't know smaller ones li... » Continue Reading
I have been using Tiktok for two years now but not once did I ever download one song that became famous on it no matter how much I liked it. For some reason, I kept the music I heard their separate from what I listen to when I'm logged off. I have come across a lot of songs that I liked, though none of them seemed to really stamp themselves on my brain. Until tonight. One of the many fantasies I l... » Continue Reading
It's an ass name, I know. I originally created this account for fangirling over certain characters; Hannibal Lecter, Will Graham, Thomas Shelby, all the men in AoT, you name it. But after watching Sherlock and seeing how John's therapist recommended writing blogs to him, I was intrigued. And it worked for me. An invisible weight was lifted from my shoulders whenever I posted a blog about anything ... » Continue Reading
I'm going to be on the road with my aunt and a bunch of her co-workers in a few hours. It's going to be somewhere near the beach. I hope our resort is good, I really need one of those complementary toothbrushes since I forgot to bring my own. It's been four or five years since I last went to the beach. Neither were even for leisure because we were visiting the province to pay respects to some of o... » Continue Reading
I haven't had a realistic fictional crush in years . Or as far as I can remember. All my fictional crushes have either been fantasy himbos, homicidal maniacs ( ehem Hannibal ehem ), or people who would chew me and spit me out the moment they laid eyes on me (Tommy Shelby would be the obvious example for this). I feel like Will Graham was the closest but I would rather not deal with him either. Not... » Continue Reading
I can finally breathe easily. After all the issues with my groupmates and professor, this second presentation was a major success. The professor was pretty happy with it and had no questions to ask. And the fact that the group who presented after me were the ones who inquired about the question I dreaded to ask after class was another win. The professor answering coherently and bluntly is another.... » Continue Reading
Heartstopper is hands down one of my favorite teen drama shows ever . Honestly don't remember what other good teen dramas I've watched but no matter. I'm going to be talking about one show tonight and one show only and that is my beloved, Heartstopper. I'm by no means a member of the LGBTQIA+ community so it's a given I wouldn't be able to relate to most of the themes in the show. But, my God, the... » Continue Reading
I miss my old professors. I haven't even finished my first year in college and I already do. Probably brought about by the much more severe professors I'm currently being taught by or just the sheer difficulty of the activities now. I miss the enthusiasm and motherly demeanor of one of them. The gentle severity and understanding of the other. And the friendliness of the last one. The creative free... » Continue Reading
If I thought I've felt being emotionally drained before, this has nothing on previous experiences. My professor had finally given me their blessing to do my projects alone. Yay, right? Well, not exactly and this is what takes the proverbial best stressor cake for me. I can work alone and without anyone holding me back or dragging me down but at what cost? By bringing myself down. My professor expe... » Continue Reading
I'm not dumb. I'm not as smart as a certain high functioning sociopath either. But one would need at least a maximum of five brain cells to see what's happening. To be honest she has never really treated me as smart or truly remarkable from what I remember. Not unless she had something to do with it. The last time I checked, she never helped me in school work so this theory would make sense in a w... » Continue Reading
I just had another one of those pacing episodes. They usually happen when I have massive fits about my aunt being...well...disagreeable. Today was no different but under all the pressure of college lately, I almost burst. I told her off. Of course, she snapped back because she didn't think she was wrong. But really, just learn to piss off sometimes, will you? I'm trying to watch a show and we alre... » Continue Reading
Day 4 of waiting for my professor to answer my email about going solo. I'm really hoping they'll understand. The stress I'm going through right now is not worth it. I'd rather be stressed by things that are in my control than people who obviously don't give a flying fuck. I refuse to let this be the reason I get low grades. Fuck them. Please, let this work. » Continue Reading