If I thought I've felt being emotionally drained before, this has nothing on previous experiences. My professor had finally given me their blessing to do my projects alone. Yay, right? Well, not exactly and this is what takes the proverbial best stressor cake for me. I can work alone and without anyone holding me back or dragging me down but at what cost? By bringing myself down. My professor expects me to give out the same effort in outputs as my grouped classmates (which I can do with my eyes closed, mind you) but I suffer a grade deduction. All because I don't want anyone to bring me down with them.
I'm honestly conflicted. While I want to work on my own at my own pace and with the effort I can't really give because of my groupmates being literal leeches, I'm still going to get the grades I'll probably be given while in the group despite finally having the freedom to put more effort into my work. It's insulting. It's degrading. It's humiliating. It feels like I got a solid slap to the face in front of a crowd of strangers while accepting what I wanted but only three-fourths of it. Someone bit the popsicle before handing it to me. Now, I'm tempted to say this is unfair. Which it is, really. But life will be even more unfair in the future, so I'll reserve that word for when it is.
I've decided to call this a challenge. One that I will conquer because that's what one does to a challenge. You do what you can to beat a challenge because it's there to be defeated. And defeat it I shall.
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Ramone
i can agree with groups being difficult. sometimes (a little bit of offense to them) my classmates are kinda dumb, they don't communicate and somehow don't understand how to read a rubric
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It's so tiring honestly.
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