i was gonna kind of give an update on how i was doing mentally, but its not any better so INSTEAD im going to talk about how im losing my mind lol its kinda funny so right now i have to watch 5 kids all by myself and i've watched 10 kids b4 so this isn't really all that much and it shouldnt be that hard right? well no it is hard bc these kids are fucking insane. theyre running everywhere theyre sc... » Continue Reading
so ive come to the realization after crying my eyes out that im really not okay, and no matter how much i pretend or how much i say i am, im just not. theres just a lot of things people dont know about me and nobody ever gets it. they dont know that i cry myself to sleep every single night without miss they dont know that i have sudden anxiety attacks they dont know i self harm they know nothing ... » Continue Reading
lately if i write a blog, it's all just me venting i had a lot more blogs up but i made them all private i dont think i want people to see how much more vulnerable i can be (rhymes) how long should i pretend to be happy? i genuinely thought i would be happy so why am i not happy i dont understand no, i do understand everything is just getting to my head maybe what i think isn't actually the case ... » Continue Reading
I want to have a mental breakdown but nobody notices except tulip... i told myself that i was happy happy happy and i believed it until now im unhappy again? maybe and i do know why but.. i dont want to tell anyone why it may seem selfish if i do maybe i should let it go maybe i should take a break from what though? i dont know yet » Continue Reading
im just a teeny tiny little bit upset and angry hmmmm hmmm HMMMM i wonder why that could beeee, ohhhh but i wont get into it right noww. sometimes i wish i could just clone myself bc who knows me better than i do? and i'd probably be my own bestfriend » Continue Reading
THIS SHOW GIVES ME SO MUCH SECOND HAND EMBARASSMENT OMG if high school is anything like how it is in TV then im not going i will die » Continue Reading
so anyways this is gonna have mentions of p0rn and a bunch of other shit so yeah theres ur warning I guess ok so i just started a new show and its so fucking crazy but so good. I've never watched a show like this b4 bc I usually watch mlp and random anime but I just started watching ginny and georgia bc everyones talking about it, and I actually like it wtf. im only on episode 4 but it seems like ... » Continue Reading
lately i've been so much lazier than normal and iiii hate ittttt, so i'm gonna try and do a bit more, but i've been super unmotivated. I need to figure out how to get my motivation back. I've been putting off some of my chores, i've been staying in bed late ahugheuh I need motivation so bad I have to start scheduling a daily routine again which means waking up earlyy every day and all that stuff n... » Continue Reading
im facing a huge dilemma which could typically be solved easily by a person who is in touch with their feelings but.. I am not one of those people. Not sure what to do, I feel as if I want to please everyone but if I try and do that I'm gonna end up just hurting someone instead ykwim. It's so hard to have so many people rely on you, to have so many people trust you, to have so many people love you... » Continue Reading
shouldve took those damn sleep pills wtf https://voca.ro/19N24R8Tkfbf yoinkies zoinkies haha my whisper voice is shit/.dje me n all my teddy bears are havin a long ass night. we do be conversating tho fr » Continue Reading
yk ur hot when people hate you. LIKE ONLY THE ATTRACTIVE MFS BE HAVING HATERS IM TELLING YOU. IF SOME1 EVER HATE ON U FOR SOMETHING THEY GOTTA BE JUST JEALOUS IM TELLIN U. CUZ AINT NO FUCKIN WAYYHDHW8HS » Continue Reading
IMA NEED EVERYONE TO STOPPPPPPPPPP COMPLIMENTING ME ON IT BC UR GONNA MAKE ME ACTUALLY BE CONFIDENT IN SOMETHING FOR ONCE AND IDK HELP, MY VOICE ISNT ALL THAT SO WHY IS EVERYONE ACTING LIKE ITS SOME REVOLUTIONARY STUFF EFJIOS. ITS NOT CUTE I PROMISE YOU ITS NOT https://voca.ro/13ioB0bBIGJh now hush up losers » Continue Reading