children lol

i was gonna kind of give an update on how i was doing mentally, but its not any better so INSTEAD im going to talk about how im losing my mind lol

its kinda funny

so right now i have to watch 5 kids all by myself and i've watched 10 kids b4 so this isn't really all that much and it shouldnt be that hard right? well no it is hard bc these kids are fucking insane.

theyre running everywhere

theyre screaming really loud

theyre fighting each other

theyre stealing food from the fridge 

theyre laughing like maniacs

theyre just doing EVERYTHING

and in this midst of all this, cocomelon is playing in the background

these kids are going to make me lose my mind lol

thinking about all this just kind of makes me laugh

im not as fond of children as i used to be

yet i still instinctively care about them and will treat them as if they're my own kids T-T

im dealing with a 9 year old, a 7 year old, a 4 year old, a 3 year old, and a 1 year old.

this is quite annoying lol 

yet seeing a bunch of little kids have fun just really makes me happy

the 9 yr old just told me he peed is pants LOL im sorry this is too funny im actually having the best and worst time ever