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Category: Blogging
I'm so stressed out, I need to make about $40 to make my credit card payment this week, and I'm also trying to make as much as possible because my best friend needs my help. Sales are slow and no one wants to bundle any items so It's been hard to even make the money I do have coming. just keep going thru all my stuff and trying to find more I can part with that might sell better. I can't work so t... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Honestly, I really should one day write a book about my life and the abuse I've endured. what sucks is that my memory is super shitty from trauma that I can't remember my childhood much. Like I know certain things happened, I know it was a bad childhood, but I have limited memories. And growing up constantly being gaslit has me questioning my own memories. I really wish I'd had the resources to wr... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Im so fucking frustrated with my doctors. I was supposed to go in for my 6 month checkup of my swollen optic nerves already but they scheduled me for MARCH. the problem is- my neurologist appointment to go over the results from that eye appointment is in February. I cant have that appointment without having the other first. and the swollen optic nerves cause headaches, which the medicine i take fo... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I was groomed online when I was 14. my email address was wiped of the evidence, but I finally remembered the name of the fucker who groomed me. He was suggested to me. on insta. INSTAGRAM. SUGGESTED. HIS. ACCOUNT. I'd NEVER messaged him there- I didn't even know he had one! but there he fucking was. looked up the name on facebook to make sure It was him and yep. there he fucking was. But, now what... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Yesterday was fun, my bestie picked me up and took me to the mall. We got my bulbasaur build a bear re-stuffed since he was needing it, got starbucks, picked up some snacks, and then got lunch before we left the mall. we also visited the library and then she took me to stater's to get some more snacks and got me starbucks coffee AND starbucks creamer to go with it and its SO good! we had a lot of ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
It's day 4 of nano and I've only got 1,424 words, but tbh my goal is really just to keep writing. I have the 50k goal sure, but realistically I just want to get back into writing. Writing is a form of escape for me, and since the abuse at my place has gotten worse I really need that right now. I'm working on my novel, but also on some fanfics I have on an old site I've been on for 8 years... Wow t... » Continue Reading
Category: Religion and Philosophy
I'm so excited for Samhain tomorrow. Being in the 'broom closet' sucks as each sabbat goes by, but ESPECIALLY Samahin. it is the witch's new year and the most important of the sabbats- as the veil is thin and we honor our ancestors. I haven't been able to do my ritual since 2019, and in 2020 my grandmother passed away. This year, I'll finally be able to honor her on the sabbat and I'll be leaving ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I am awful at remembering this site exists, but here I am lol. I jsut wanted to update that I'm currently working on my first full length novel! it's so exciting to be working on something that isn't fanfiction. I'm gonna be doing nanowrimo to hopefully write the first 50,000 words of it and then continue after nano ends. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I finally started two new stories, on my fave website called Quotev. It feels good to get back into writing and my creative side, I just wish Polyvore was still a thing. It went so perfectly with quotev and was a key part of my creative process and I'm still trying to find a replacement for the site. writing is the rare time when I feel like I'm doing what I'm meant to do, but it's so hard for me... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
for the past year, I really let myself go. I gained over 40lbs, and depression was killing me. I'm done. today, i went for a walk with my mom and almost walked a mile! I enrolled in college to try again, i put myself on a strict diet (no soda, no sweets/junk, and i eat at certain times) I've lost about 8 lbs and i feel good. I also am getting back into learning Japanese, and i bought myself a new ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I'm feeling so nostalgic for the old websites I grew up on. my three main sites when I first had access to Internet were Quotev, Polyvore, and Google Plus Quotev is still around, but its pretty dead due to owners constantly changing it at one point. it was a site to write stories and such and I loved it. and most of us used it in conjunction with Polyvore. polyvore was a site to create "sets" - ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I hate not being able to sleep. I haven't been able to just fall asleep as long as I can remember, but usually within 3 hours I can sleep. I can tell tonight I won't sleep. my brain won't turn off at all and I'm over thinking things honestly tempted to try to sleep in the living room, but I know my mom and her husband will think im sick or something and be mad. plus my cat will keep me up cos she... » Continue Reading
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