rant//mom

Honestly, I really should one day write a book about my life and the abuse I've endured. what sucks is that my memory is super shitty from trauma that I can't remember my childhood much. Like I know certain things happened, I know it was a bad childhood, but I have limited memories. And growing up constantly being gaslit has me questioning my own memories. I really wish I'd had the resources to write stuff down as a kid, but I never did. I wish I could've taken pictures, or recorded audio. just for physical evidence. it's hard to tell people because they'll say my mom isnt abusive, that I'm lazy, I'm a freeloader, etc etc. even when i was working myself to death at a warehouse because my mom said she'd kick me out if I quit. I was fainting at work constantly. I have so many health problems now that started after working there. but apparently I'm just lazy and need to 'grow up and move out' when it's expensive as SHIT here and I can't physically work right now. I hate people.