I definitely deserve the Cat Ass Trophy award for Catastrophizing Everything. I certainly feel like I've shown my ass after a thing passes and it ends up being not as bad as I expect. I will get over this at some point, maybe after this most recent time. Things are never as bad as I expect them to be. I let my anxiety get the better of me too easily. I have gotten over my anxiety on many fronts bu... » Continue Reading
Sooo I know I just started blogging on here again, but I need to get off the internet for a period and focus on myself. I returned to the internet wayyy too soon after leaving intensive treatment. I am ok to be clear, but I could sense if I did not leave immediately my paranoia would get bad again. I was posting a bit erratically on my other sites. And just yeah, I need time to heal and grow. I ca... » Continue Reading
At work we like to joke about having a reality show about our office. Just documenting the shenanigans or chaos that happens in the work place. Some of it's good and funny, others more dramatic. I think our 100th episode was probably "The barbeque gets swarmed out by wasps," a comedy episode, which was then followed immediately by a drama episode that I wont get into. I bring this up because somet... » Continue Reading
So, it's been awhile since I've posted anything. I guess I'll tell yall about this crush I have and how I went a tad crazy recently. No one reads these anyway. I fear I am just crazy tho. So there's this Really Cool, Creative, and Incredibly Hot person I have a giant crush on. I try to be friendly, make conversation without being too weird, just be casual I guess. They will occasionally engage wit... » Continue Reading
Night of February 10th, 2022 This is titled back from the dead but who knows how long or how well that will last. This site is just another reminder of how uninteresting and uninspired I am. Dont get me wrong, I like the site but it relies on original posts and frequent discussion and that's just not a strong suit of mine. But also this is just another example of my desire to be Special when real... » Continue Reading
Night of May 3rd, 2021. 3:25am TW vent, SH, ED Lately, I've been really struggling with staying in the present. I have been focusing so much on what I want to do in the future that I've gotten stuck within my present situations. I keep having to remind myself that everything takes time and that I can't, and shouldn't, rush into the future. But this stuck feeling, this standstill of sorts, causes m... » Continue Reading
Night of April 21st, 2021 5:18am I thought this might be a fun thing to blog about when I can't get to sleep. Just a little series about things I'm thinking about, sometimes coherent, sometimes just whatever weird shit comes to mind. I don't really have anything floating around in the old noggin at the moment. Crashing at my friend's house for the night, I have her kitten and my other friend's sno... » Continue Reading
Anyone else love DIY hair? I got into DIY hair about seven (7) years ago, the summer before my sophomore year of high school. I had asked my mom to give me an undercut, so I could cosplay Levi Ackerman from Attack on Titan. The cosp » Continue Reading