Insomnia Thoughts #1

Night of April 21st, 2021 5:18am

I don't really have anything floating around in the old noggin at the moment. Crashing at my friend's house for the night, I have her kitten and my other friend's snores to keep me company. Having insomnia at other people's houses is a little odd. No one else is awake, essentially have the house to yourself but it's not your home and you don't want to wake anyone. So you're options are limited. I try my best to get to sleep, sometimes I can manage it but often I just spend 3 or 4 hours tossing and turning until I give up and go on my phone. This is such time, though by now it's been 2 hours since I gave up.

I realized about a month ago that I had insomnia. Before then I had always just written it off and didnt think it applied, but then I actually googled the symptoms for once and realized "oh shit Haha that's me". Looking back it makes sense. I've been waking up in the middle of the night since I was kid, always up super late without being tired, always the last to go to sleep at sleepovers and the first to wake up. I was never noticeably tired during the day so I would just write off like whatever this is fine. But lately it's been bad, I feel tired all the time. can take naps in the middle of the day but can't sleep at night for the life of me. It's the most frustrating thing ever. 

Anyway thanks for listening. I'm gonna try again. Wish me luck,

Lou