"probably daydreaming"
where i go to put these thoughts away
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Category: Writing and Poetry
There's so much I can do just to clear out the space, I'm constantly cutting our ties, Constantly turning over the broom in the closet - "Gosh, maybe these guests will leave soon but they always seem to overstay." I sweep and I burn sacred smoke and I throw it all out the window, out the front door. I shake out the welcome mat. I make sure they're shut. Always closing the door, always turning t... » Continue Reading
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Gratefully, I have no fears about where all this is going. Whichever roads are taken, whatever portals I go through, I know where they all lead to. Those possibilities, I've seen them; snapshots in my mind, visions of Now from other moments. Memories of past, future, and some alternative present. What is it all besides light rearranged in some way? Simply put, time and space are only ideas... » Continue Reading
Category: Religion and Philosophy
It started with a call. A call I made for the Highest Truth. Goodness, I thought this Truth had something to do with anything other than myself. Maybe I was hoping so. Indeed, I was hoping so. That was where I got it mixed up. Do you ever feel lonely or alone? Have you ever wished to be seen, to be loved? I know this all too well. But you see, I only have myself. At the end of the day, I ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I've decided to take inventory just once more. Surprise surprise -- I found more to let go of. I mean, is that really new, anyways? It seems I'm always finding more to clear out. Sometimes I'm like, why do I even have this? I really mean to refine myself, down to the nitty gritty. I've recently come up with a mantra that's brought me much peace: "Nothing is ever lost, only misplaced. What'... » Continue Reading
Category: Music
you don't get to see these tears I cried » Continue Reading
Category: Life
So I've gathered all the things I've decided to rid myself of, but they still take up space - at least for now. This isn't a case of out of sight out of mind. I wonder which of these, if any, can be revived, renewed, or transformed for better use this time. Others I simply wonder how much I will miss, if at all. I look at the details and trace my fingers along all the stitches, I retrace my st... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
🪓🪓🪓 I'm not gonna sugarcoat it. I'm not gonna speak in riddles or some metaphorical sense. Well, maybe not to me lol. Whatever, I'm just gonna let it flow. But I'm fucking DONE!!!!!! SO FUCKING DONE. Done pretending. Done hiding. Done acting like I'm happy WHEN I'M NOT. I'm actually quite the opposite. Or maybe that is a lie - I'm capable of being happy and I do experience that because I c... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
"So he's gonna break it?" No, why would it be that? "How else is it going to open?" Gently... with Love. » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
Hmm... I just realized I don't fw connections that automatically go straight to romance or trying to date right away or whatever else. (Sex, being a very physical, instinctual act, is another story - though it's still quite important to me with whom I share that energy with) I guess that's why I don't really like dating apps... personally for me I have to actually get to know someone before even c... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
Truth be told, I don't just have a sword - I have a shield too. It would be nice to set this thing down once in a while—the shield. And remove all my armor. Maybe even let my hair down.. yeah, I'd really like to surrender it all. I wanna let go. I wanna go deep. I wanna get free. I wanna get naked. I wanna wave a white flag. » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
This… “stuff”? Oh, okay. I see, you think this has nothing to do with you. » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I woke up in 5D, it seems, or at least on the right side of the bed yesterday. I got myself ready for the day and went to the nail salon to get a pedicure. I like this specific spa for them because they include a hot stone massage. Then I went to my tata's to start organizing my room. I worked on it for two hours. I wasn't sure where everything, or everyone would go. I got some of my closet a... » Continue Reading
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