i love vix love love lovvveee vix our month anniversary was two days ago its just getting better im so glad i met her in fuckin pillar chase of all games i guess bladeninja is good for something after all she makes me not empty, she makes me more emotional than i was before i used to feel numb, but she makes me feel so happy and horny she doesnt even have to say anything, she’s just so cute i don... » Continue Reading
heres a blog about my girlfriend we've been dating for 2 weeks now i know she's special, because by now i wouldve gotten bored, or my feelings randomly change about her, but they haven't, and i wont let my self-sabotaging ass do that again atleast i'm trying not to... she's very clingy, and she apologizes a lot for doing so, but in all honesty i wish she was even more clingy i want her to be compl... » Continue Reading
b-been a while since ive done one of these..! heh! okay so i like got peer pressured by my good ol buddy richerd to spend 200+ DOLLARS ON FUCKING ANIME ADVENTURES all my christmas money.. i hate this mf so much cannot believe i did ts tbf i wouldnt spend the money on anything better (knowing me) BUT LIKE ON ANIME ADVENTURES?? i pirate all my games anyways but so much robux on a game i dont even pl... » Continue Reading
“she wont love you as much as i love you” i cant stop thinking about that i tried to just brush it off, but silly ol self sabotaging me is dwelling on it brook’s probably right how do i not know she’s just lying to me? (when i say she im not referring to brook) i mean, we aren’t even dating anyways i keep forgetting i’m not supposed to let myself get attached in anyway why do i keep forgetting tha... » Continue Reading
why the fuck am i feeling like this this feeling isnt real i dont know whats real i dont know if what im feeling is real it usually isnt or what if it is i dont want to get attached to somebody again god not again being completely devoid of emotions would make my life so much easier ohhhh my god what even is love my heart feels heavy, not with guilt, but with desire, and i hate it. ughughgjkf i'l » Continue Reading
been a while since i made one of these not really a point to, not much stuff in my life really changes, i just get more miserable not like anybody reads ts anyways 😠okayyyy uhm where do i start so we’re on winter break rn i got my laptop back got a bunch of robux since i make terrible financial decisions i spent 30k+ on anime adventures because my friend richerd told me to… fucking richerd i st... » Continue Reading
been a while since i’ve done one of these yeah anyways uhm man whats even the point of writing these nobody reads this shit i need to do something better with my life than just play games all day i have nothing better to do man fuck my life whatever winter depression is fucking me up i havent washed my clothes jn like half a year crazy how my mom hasnt noticed she doesnt notice tnag i dont » Continue Reading
what does it mean to be human? is it to love? is it to desire? is it to be kind? is it to feel? “What is a human heart?” as asked by uliquorria, a question i’ve been wondering for a bit now whatever being human is, i don’t know if i have those qualities of a human i don’t know what i feel, what i think, or what i desire at this point i mean, i WANT to be happy, all of us do. but i’ve pretty much ... » Continue Reading
my life is so inconsistent well, it isn’t really my LIFE persay, just my emotions everyday, hell, every hour i flipflop between two moods “im so amazing, im better than absolutely everyone. everybody should praise me” and “everyone sucks, i suck, im so fucking lonely. why cant i just be happy.” and a mix of both “i’m so perfect, but i’m also so lonely. it’s so lonely being the best.” that’s how i... » Continue Reading
im gonna do these regular updates of my life, like how i did on my first account soo where to begin for this week i had the bright idea to take my xbox into my room and hock it up to my laptop’s monitor, so now i can play xbox in my room alas, i can play more roblox games than just pillar chase, and i can also play others like fortnite and overwatch it’d still be better if i had my laptop, but t... » Continue Reading
here i am to trauma dump about my fucked up life the title of this is a reference to “the love i lost” by fried by fluoride, which i happen to relate to a lot i’ve been listening to this song sm lately anyways, back on track. i generally hate or feel no sort of emotion towards most if not EVERYTHING i hate my “friends”, my dad, i’m TRYING not to hate my mom, which i think i’ve been doing a good jo... » Continue Reading