here i am to trauma dump about my fucked up life the title of this is a reference to “the love i lost” by fried by fluoride, which i happen to relate to a lot i’ve been listening to this song sm lately anyways, back on track. i generally hate or feel no sort of emotion towards most if not EVERYTHING i hate my “friends”, my dad, i’m TRYING not to hate my mom, which i think i’ve been doing a good jo... » Continue Reading
i usually separate each topic into different parts, but these two are pretty similar through years of trauma, my sense of every human quality has became twisted. my morality, my empathy, my personality, everything is unrecognizable than how i was just a year ago. same with how i conceive love. do you truly even love me if you don’t let me control every aspect of your life? if you don’t let me thr... » Continue Reading
my music taste is so peak 💔💔 i listen to quite literally EVERYTHING except country music because im not white… i love msi sm i live breathe and run on msi im an msi boy and i need a rebzyyx girl fr fr 😇😇 i love kikuo/kikuohana, and tyler the creator, andddd slipknot i love a lot of artists i have atleast 300+ different artists in my playlist INTERESTS i have lots of interests too i’m passionate ab... » Continue Reading
if i were to tell someone my entire life, past and present, i feel like they’d look at me in a much different way… cause MAN where to begin… so when i was born, my biological dad was only around for like two days before he just fucked off. i was born in jacksonville, florida my mom was 15 when she got pregnant with me, and 16 when she gave birth to me. crazy, right? she was basically my age when ... » Continue Reading
everyday i’m lonely. i am not alone, i have lots of… “friends”. i rarely hear from these friends, however. often, i am just left by myself, with just my thoughts, with only myself to entertain myself. i am so incredibly lonely, everyday is a struggle. loneliness is one of the worst pains you could ever put upon someone, and i am overflowing with it. my friends are not friends, just people who appe... » Continue Reading
so.. new account. second times the charm there goes allllll my blogs… allat lore that nobodies gonna be able to read now. not like a lot of people read them anyways but THATS OKAY!! anyways.. general recap.. still don’t have my laptop back, and i’m currently starving rn i’m a fourteen year old african american male, who has nerdy teenage girl interest and is chronically online, SO WHERE THE HELL A... » Continue Reading