highs and lows

my life is so inconsistent

well, it isn’t really my LIFE persay, just my emotions

everyday, hell, every hour i flipflop between two moods

“im so amazing, im better than absolutely everyone. everybody should praise me”

and 

“everyone sucks, i suck, im so fucking lonely. why cant i just be happy.”

and a mix of both

“i’m so perfect, but i’m also so lonely. it’s so lonely being the best.”

that’s how i always feel 

no matter what, i’ll always go back to feeling lonely and unhappy

everyone is starting to get boring, or they just stopped caring

the only time i don’t feel lonely anymore is when im horny, and that’s obviously temporary 

i don’t know man

none of my friends except brook is gonna see any of ts anyways, and its not like she can do anything about it

you’re all so boring, and assholes

i miss xyro

when i was with her i never felt lonely

she was always there, always with me, always clung to me. she was always interesting, always had something to say or to do or to chip in. and she loved me, and i ruined it

i ruined everything 

i ruin everything

but that’s just apart of me

and you cant escape you