vulnerable

been a while since i’ve done one of these

yeah

anyways

uhm

man whats even the point of writing these

nobody reads this shit

i need to do something better with my life than just play games all day

i have nothing better to do

man

fuck my life

whatever

winter depression is fucking me up

i havent washed my clothes jn like half a year

crazy how my mom hasnt noticed

she doesnt notice tnag i dont shower, or take care of myself whatsoever 

awesome

anyways

i CANNOT allow myself to get vulnerable 

not again

never again

vulnerability is weakness

everytime i got vulnerable with someone, that ruined everything 

my end goal is becoming completely emotionless

wheres the mentally ill girl who’d be completely dependent on me, with NO friends so she doesnt randomly leave when we’re hanging out to go hangout with someone else, who has my interests, plays the games i play (atleast roblox), maybe can draw idrc, likes the same music as me, as broken and ill as me… actually even MORE would be nice too. wheres that girl at!?!?

being serious, i’m never gonna find the one for me

i’m not made for love anyways. i’m incapable of it

cant ever keep a relationship 

well, thats who i am

and you cant escape you