update part 1

im gonna do these regular updates of my life, like how i did on my first account 

soo where to begin for this week

i had the bright idea to take my xbox into my room and hock it up to my laptop’s monitor, so now i can play xbox in my room

alas, i can play more roblox games than just pillar chase, and i can also play others like fortnite and overwatch 

it’d still be better if i had my laptop, but this is still a big improvement 

why didn’t i think of this sooner? i’m so amazing and smart, nobody who talks to me realizes just how perfect i am and it sucks

speaking of that, i’ve never felt more lonelier. i’m so amazing, but i’m still so miserable. i have no substance, no meaning, nothing to make me feel alive

i don’t know what’s gonna help, i don’t know if anything is going to change. i want to escape this constant dread and loneliness, but that’s just apart of me

and you can’t escape you

none of my friends will never see this. none of them genuinely care about me enough to even check my discord bio.. let alone just click a link in that bio and see my profile

well, brook reads these, doesn’t she?? i guess she cares about me, for whatever reason. she’s still attached to me, even though i’m always such an asshole to her. which to be fair, i love being an asshole to her. she always just takes it without any resistance, i love it. she just apologizes and backs down like a pathetic dog, i love it so much.

should i be admitting this stuff?? probably not, but i don’t care all too much if she sees this or not. i’ve already showed and said much about how terrible of a person i am, both on here and to her. at this point i might be PROUD of how awful i am, and i can’t escape that

you cant escape you