fuckk

why the fuck am i feeling like this

this feeling isnt real

i dont know whats real

i dont know if what im feeling is real

it usually isnt

or what if it is

i dont want to get attached to somebody again

god not again

being completely devoid of emotions would make my life so much easier

ohhhh my god

what even is love

my heart feels heavy, not with guilt, but with desire, and i hate it.

ughughgjkf

i'll just end up hurting her

i hurt everyone

and i dont even feel bad about it

im unable to

how did i turn out like this

this feeling has to just be that infatuation phase, nothing more

thats it, nothing more