hate // detached

here i am to trauma dump about my fucked up life

the title of this is a reference to “the love i lost” by fried by fluoride, which i happen to relate to a lot

i’ve been listening to this song sm lately

anyways, back on track. i generally hate or feel no sort of emotion towards most if not EVERYTHING

i hate my “friends”, my dad, i’m TRYING not to hate my mom, which i think i’ve been doing a good job lately, i hate the mfs who try to talk to me at school, i just hate people

i hate everything but myself.. at least THIS personality doesn’t hate myself. i like this personality, i like being jaden

im so detached from everything, even myself. i don’t know who i am, what i’m feeling, what im thinking or if my thoughts are even mine. i don’t know what my GENUINE personality is anymore. i guess me being an asshole and not caring about everyone is as close as it gets

everyone alive is worse than me. everyone is stupid except me. i am the best.