second thoughts

“she wont love you as much as i love you”

i cant stop thinking about that

i tried to just brush it off, but silly ol self sabotaging me is dwelling on it

brook’s probably right

how do i not know she’s just lying to me? (when i say she im not referring to brook)

i mean, we aren’t even dating anyways

i keep forgetting i’m not supposed to let myself get attached in anyway

why do i keep forgetting that?

im kind of freaking out

i need to distance myself

i cant let myself get any closer to her

nobody could love me

i’m selfish, cold, arrogant, distant

who could love that?

i bet she’s just in the infatuation stage too

soon it’ll be over and she’ll stop being all lovey dovey with me

god i hate feelings

i hate her

hate hate hate

stop lying to me stop stop stop it

why can’t i be happy?