i skipped one of my classes again today, nearly skipped another too. i feel like ive returned back to the sadness again. i went to the library and thought i saw my ex for a second, the way they turned their head and flipped their hair, heart attack. it was so windy today too, but the kind where you cant breathe when it's hitting you head on. i have a lot to do in the next few days, the next few mo... » Continue Reading
i didnt do much today. im kind of sick. i woke up from a dream where my ex moved on with someone else despite saying they were letting everyone go to heal. i was so afraid and hurt, i even said in the dream how i was scared that they would move on while im stuck here unable to imagine being with anyone else. sorry for the overshare. it was a lot; my emotions are somehow more intense when i get sic... » Continue Reading
ig im gonna use this as a kind of public diary, kind of like in wet moon, which is one of my favorite graphic novel series'. ill try to write everyday, but this is mostly to try to keep myself accountable in recording events in my life, especially since im in the turbulent and truly abysmal 20s. whoever said it gets better was fucking lying it isn't getting better, and i doubt it magically gets be... » Continue Reading