november 14

therapy was good today. i feel more open and curious, more than i did before. still struggling with some things, but far more clarity. it feels surreal, and kind of good, like a relief that i can feel normal enough to have this clarity. might be the meds helping to level me out emotionally. my therapist says that i am more than how and what i feel and the intensity of them, or at least i think thats what shes trying to say. and i think that's true, and i want to find out who that person is beyond the deep heartwrenching emotion.

chelsea wolfe released her unbound ep today and of course im obsessed i love chelsea wolfe. my favorite song is either dusk or place in the sun-unbound, though her whole newest album she reaches out to she reaches out to is amazing. i love her whole discog, and her gothic witchy aesthetic. the marias released no one noticed-extended spanish today too, not sure when theyll release the original extended from one of their tiny desk but ugh it hurts in spanish too, at least as someone who doesnt know a lot of spanish but understands bits and pieces. i need to get serious about learning spanish...