I sit alone in my room. cold and dark. listening to who knows what and trying to make myself feel better about not having a truly "close" friend. and i think to myself. what if we were financially stable. would i still be a narc n autist or would i be at least a little more normal.. dont bother responding. its 1 am » Continue Reading
i need more stuff to watch. stuff ive watched already are: Hereditary (2018), Halloween (1978), Friday The 13th (1980), Friday The 13th Part 2 (1981), Friday The 13th Part III (1982), Friday The 13th (2009), The Texas Chainsaw Massacr » Continue Reading
i just finished watching hereditary. 10/10 amazing film didnt know half of what the fuck was going on though. my friend, simon, is a big fan of it. i see why now. im very glad i got to watch this » Continue Reading
the themes of rot, flesh, mold, and everything organic of the sort has always been such a prominent theme in my life. so much its scary. i have even noticed it. not until recently. i am flesh. made out of it. everyone is. its amazing. meat. being able to just. be on earth. how the hell have we become these beings. god isnt real. so how does anything work » Continue Reading
I keep shaking. cant tell if im cold or anxious. i fear its both,, very nervous about something. an ex friend of mine "navi" (not the friend group ive been posting about recently. this one is from 2023) and i have been speaking again. i wish i rejoin their friendgroup since i dont have anybody else left to go to. the rest are very iffy on me. but shes trying. » Continue Reading
guess im doing this now. no promises it will be every day! not much happend. the doctors in this place are shit and wont call back my dad to get me n my brothers appointment set up, me for an infection him for idk. school was fine. not much happend. i started crying on the bus when missing my old friend group but im over it now. CS updates: all of my chicken eggs have finally ha » Continue Reading
i have no idea what to do at all. i want to be famous. everywhere. but not because i want people to like me its more just. i want the people who DONT like me to see me EVERYWHERE! like im haunting them or someting. recently my posts on twitter have been getting consistently in the hundreds when i post meleeniacs stuff!!! so thats a positive for sure. sucks that the people i hate are already like. ... » Continue Reading
i live in Ontario and i have no idea where to find clubs/raves... ive tried looking at snapchat, insta, whatever to see if anybodys like. hosting any near me and theres legit nothing. i dont want to spend my weekend nights alone smoking cigarettes. but i need advice where to find any. if possible ones that arent strictly 18+ cus im only 16 and i dont have a fake id yet. kudos n comments appreciate... » Continue Reading
theres this girl . who i knew that died from suicide a few months ago. and they were part of the friend group that recently dropped me. ive made little tributes to her death and im pretty sure they got rid of mine because we arent friends anymore. which is weird. because even though we dont like each other doesnt mean i cant grieve the same girl that we both knew and interacted with. either way i... » Continue Reading
okay so theres this guy i know his name is zander okay. my whole friendgroup at the time hated him because he was my OTHER friends (tangys) ex. and whatever relationship drama its common. but fast forward like a year later that friend group all drops me and im like whatever ill go find my own friends and i run into him (zander). whatevr we start talkin n shit and he invites me to his discord serve... » Continue Reading
I hope to meet at least one new person on this site. i dont have many friends anymore. i have simon (online friend), Akaio & Noah. (Irl) Im okay. ill always be okay » Continue Reading