hours and hours of thinking all alone with nowhere to go you were the one to believe losing you my biggest regret eternity falls behind me your colorful shadow plays in my present go on, let go they say... in the midst of the chaos veo tus ojos brillar especiales y resplandecientes como siempre my reflection in the broken mirror you left me extended to the presence of you i fall down » Continue Reading
i think everything stems from the fact that i think i will never be enough. that no matter how hard i try, there will always be a but. always something interfering with completness, with happiness. always something getting in the way. and with this a thought of quitting, and leave it behind because whats the point? whats the point of trying if in every scenario its me losing. sometimes i think ive... » Continue Reading
this is me writing from the past . if i could i would lend you a map to show you where the storm is and to make you feel on board. a ship full of gold is parting just now gold so awe some people contemplate so bright they can only investigate desirable like living with no days dont get distracted today because they will not pardon you if you see they go » Continue Reading
maybe i am dead and i haven't realized. maybe i died and I'm on my way to the hospital. maybe i was living too much and it felt unfair. maybe it wasnt allowed to wake up dreaming. maybe the days were too short and i wanted to extend them. maybe the moon said goodbye and i wasn't ready. maybe my life wasnt there and i just kept looking. maybe you said good morning and i was distracted. maybe jesus ... » Continue Reading
sometimes i doubt myself wanting to write these because i think people will find me crazy. its a good thing they can only see my words and not my thoughts because the difference would make it clear lol well, I've been trying to change. be more open, spoken, bold. whatever. and it takes effort. more effort for some, less effort for others. that's normal (i think). what I've been finding odd is the ... » Continue Reading
i guess that means now i can participate when the accidents conversation arises? okay, not like its a milestone to achieve or something, but at least i didnt get hurt (badly) (and im ok enough to tell you about it). to be honest it was a really stupid way to hurt yourself. happens that i started riding a motorcycle. so as you might have guessed im not the very best right now. i know how to drive... » Continue Reading
for the running time of my life ive given other's people opinions a lot of credit. if i told you that i didnt care i would be lying because i know for a fact that due to this i have stopped behaving in a way, dressing up in a way, talking in a way, and in a way stopped being my true self. and no, im not a serial killer lol or something that needs to be hidden, its just me, someone with hopes and d... » Continue Reading
two people go inside a ring. suddenly. they were nowhere when destiny dictated it: you two have to go in. in fact, they didnt know what it was all about. when the referee called: protections in their mouths, their hearts and their hands. the ringing bell. the crowd screaming. what are we doing here. are we supposed to dance? its strange, a punching dance. who knows for how many rounds this will go... » Continue Reading
i came across this movie really randomly lol. i saw the movie cover in an installer for a pirated game. (which otherwise i can only have pirated). and now that i watched the movie i even wonder if they guys behind the installers are acting upon the teachings of the movie.. hmm who knows.. the movie starts literally from the beginning :p a narrator is telling the story of how amelie came to be. ho... » Continue Reading
this idea recently got to me as i was looking the scenery in my way to work. in those moments where your self fades, your sight gets blurry and you cease to believe in anything. it's just you, -in a way- i could even say that this is the real you "being present" as ironic as it sounds. okay that was too much of a parenthesis. how can you define hard? this is certainly complicated, as it could mean... » Continue Reading
te amo mucho y te extrañaré. durante este poco tiempo me demostraste que el amor no distingue tiempos ni maneras. que su llegada es repentina pero irresistible, tanto como tu mirar, como tu respiración a falta de oxígeno: indispensable para vivir pero pensable-posiblemente para morir. te quiero te quiero y te amo niña mía. te extrañaré todos los días de mi conciencia. y si algún día la pierdo y me... » Continue Reading