Hello hello hello!!! I noticed I've been getting a few more interactions (That sounds so vain lmao) so I wanted to mark my line in the sand about who I am, who I am comfortable talking to, and who I am not. Heads up for mentions of SH/EDs (Just discussions, no descriptions) I'll likely be editing this every once in a while, so keep an eye out for that! I know people don't really read these but idc... » Continue Reading
Choosing to ignore the 8+ books stacked upon my shelf right now waiting to be read and instead I'm asking if you guys have any recommendations for books to read? Preferably about queer or alt history, or some really good gothic novels if you know any. I also have a taste for stuff with themes of Christianity or religion so yeah basically anything good! Just leave it below, thx!!! » Continue Reading
I am, admittedly, very selfish. I know what belongs to me, and if I can keep it that way, I will. I know I should give, and I do make an honest effort to share wherever I can and even what I can't, and I am sincerely happy to do it, but it takes a lot to swallow the ugly feelings of possessiveness. And it's because of this stupid bullshit I have to keep putting up with- People waltzing into my spa... » Continue Reading
It's summertime, meaning I am not leaving my room for love or money. The issue is, wherever I go, rot follows. It's easier in public, when I can just reason that all the dead animals around are simply because of bad drivers or wildcats. But here, in this tiny house, it's unavoidable and suffocating. The mold I find on fresh food seems to grow from my fingertips. The bugs seem to find me invit... » Continue Reading
Hello hello hello!!! After like a year of being on here I finally have a laptop and am able to fully be here in the truest sense of the word (My screentime is about to double RIP me) BUt yes I am here and am finally gonna be more active and consistent instead of being here once every four months on mobile ^-^ » Continue Reading
Today is not only my friend’s 18th birthday (mijo if you’re reading this GO AWAY) but it is also my last day of senior year. You hear so much talk of how emotional it is but I didnt feel it until I came home and sat down with myself for a moment. I won’t ever come back to that school (God willing XD) that grew on me like mold, soft and fuzzy and multi colored. My days as a “kid” in a lot of people... » Continue Reading
OKAY SO My birthday is in like an hour and I will be turning eighteen. I’ll be a legal adult!!! This should be exciting!!! But I am not at all excited dude. I’m not even scared, im just kinda??? Frustrated??? I feel like I never had the space to be a teenager and now my time is up. I should have gott » Continue Reading
Today’s my first day of senior year in High School and for once I am super excited to be back here. I remember my first days of High School I came home sobbing because everything felt so cold and unfamiliar and now this place is like a second home to me, funnily enough. There is barely any record of myself back then- I avoided cameras like the plague. I don’t feel much better about myself but I k... » Continue Reading
Soooo fun fact about me, I grew up a Jehovah’s Witness. Recently (about a year ago? Maybe two?) my family decided to leave the church for some weird iffy feelings about the organization, but it was very firmly established that the /teachings/ were not the issue. My extended family is still really into it though, and I myself am kind of considering going back? I miss the community and i still keep... » Continue Reading
I hope if i am (for whatever weird ass reason) thinking about having kids I remember all the hell that I put my mother through in my first month of life alone. Shes even said her life has been tormented since the day she fell pregnant so please god do not let me follow. » Continue Reading
Aka i went to my grand aunt’s funeral and am making it about me // talk of death and funerals yadda yadda yadda I really don’t think its right to attend funerals when you didn’t know the deceased/family that well. Like. This is that person’s family’s last chance to say goodbye to them forever its so incredibly invasive to just stand there. Ill never be able to describe what it felt like to watch... » Continue Reading
Cw// talk of seizures and of suicide So uh. I was in health class today taking fitness tests. The kid i was partnered with had a seizure. It was really out of the blue and scary but the coach stepped in, the kid was assisted professionally and is on the way to a quick recovery don't worry. But i didn’t want to talk about the seizure itself more so the reactions. Everyone was either frozen and sta... » Continue Reading