I really need to stop thinking

Soooo fun fact about me, I grew up a Jehovah’s Witness. Recently (about a year ago? Maybe two?) my family decided to leave the church for some weird iffy feelings about the organization, but it was very firmly established that the /teachings/ were not the issue. 

My extended family is still really into it though, and I myself am kind of considering going back? I miss the community and i still keep my faith, i guess im just ashamed that i fell so far behind everyone and that i questioned the way things are done there yknow? 

I feel like I want to keep my faith and share it and study with those people without actually having to be an active member of the church itself, but every time i think of it all i hear is a voice calling me a false christian. Idk i just wanted to put these thoughts out there.