Chronicles of the Whiniest Bitch Alive Pt.2

Cw// talk of seizures and of suicide 

So uh. I was in health class today taking fitness tests. The kid i was partnered with had a seizure. It was really out of the blue and scary but the coach stepped in, the kid was assisted professionally and is on the way to a quick recovery don't worry. But i didn’t want to talk about the seizure itself more so the reactions.

Everyone was either frozen and staring or completely distracted. I don't hold a grudge against them for that, obviously, what do a bunch of teenagers know about helping in a seizure, but the world just keeps spinning. Revolutionary, i know, someone suffering doesn’t put everything on halt, but still yk? 

I didnt even realize the kid needed help for a few seconds. If someone can be so blatantly in need of help and not receive , what about people whose hurting isn't as obvious? Some guys just walked out just like nothing happened. Obvs people react differently but they really didn’t seem to care. Not all of us are bleeding hearts but to have so little regard for someone? 

It also planted a little voice that some people cling to life like its all they have (ig it is huh) while others will do just about anything to get out of it which is kinda the biggest slap to the face. Just on the way there i was thinking about planning an exit. Startled the idea right out of me. 

TL;DR- A kid had a seizure and in my grand swoop of narcissism im talking about how that makes me hesitant to kms