all the things I love are lost under piles of nonsenseless things. taken all joy away, overconsumption of the things you love can make you sick of it, too much of anything will lead you to insanity. it only puts you in harms way, craving wanting the same happiness you had everyday. you were greedy and sore, you only wanted more. It leads you to madness, stuck in your own sadness. it doesn't do you... » Continue Reading
your searching for heaven in every hill and medow, every sun and shadow. oh- so shallow. heaven on earth my dear, your looking around. no sound in sight, it's not here my friend. mon ami, mon chéri. it's never going to hurt you. it's never going to find you. hold on to your little white gown, you might need it someday. the veiled bride is trying to hide her love away, I looked at you and somehow I... » Continue Reading
I wish I could change for the better, save myself before everyone else. silly old me in the corner, sobbing her eyes out over something everyone else considers so stupid. but is it so stupid to feel? to know that I can't help it or change who I am, nor do I want to. is it because I care too much, but when others care I don't care enough? I will never meet the standards but I like who I am. I hate ... » Continue Reading
the rainy winters day, stripped of sunlight faded in her mind. not a single thought in sight, like a nose bleed, running until you can't stop. running water but the stream is so fast, your paralyzed in movement with the meloncoly sound of a faint cry for help, but no one can hear you drowning upon yourself. you devote yourself to your longing and desire for love that will never be found in each an... » Continue Reading
boys look like angels, but they talk like devils. they know how to wrap you around their finger like a string pulling in a fish like a line on a hook, it leaves me shook. I read you like an open book, your not open-minded your just optimistic. your not plain sighted, your invisible. your divisible, divided into equal halves. two faced, broken apart. shattered heart. I take pieces of myself to put ... » Continue Reading
they use you for money, all pushy-and-shovey. straight up fake and phony. call you lonely, it's only when they create problems in your head that aren't there, for the college board to stare. for the government to give its precious tax dollars once they declare lies. breaki » Continue Reading
I like you so much it hurts. I know you don't like me back and I know you never will. I'm tired of waiting for something that will never happen. it's not your fault, but I'm sorry for seeing something that wasn't there. If you like someone else, tell me. if you don't like me, tell me. don't lead me on, hoping that one day you'll bother to text me. the only time you » Continue Reading
he kissed me in my dreams, he kissed me in my sleep and he told me he was with someone else - it was all a dream. it was all a nightmare, it was far too close to reality. I hugged him, I told him I was happy for him. I feel like my love for him is suffocating me. I feel like it's choking me, if I stay I know the deeper the cut but if I go I'll never be able to for » Continue Reading
Can't trust a word you say, talked to you everyday. said you'd never leave as I watched you walk away, why do I drive everyone away? you said I'm not any better than my ex bestfriend, can't lie, can't deny. but your words still repeat in my head, engraved in my mind like all the time. you said "i'd never like you in a million years" but your actions and your words give mixed signals, malfunctionin... » Continue Reading
the silence is so loud, but you can hear the sirens blaring in your ears and after all these years, you realize you only ever think about your problems. sometimes I wish I was back on that hospital bed struggling to breathe, sometimes I feel like I deserve it again. sometimes I feel like I want to be loved and cared for and felt pity towards, to be helped by charities and organizations for the ter... » Continue Reading
if your out of movies to watch here are some good "thought daughter" themed movies: - perks of being a wallflower - Juno - bones and all - call me by your name - beautiful boy - priscilla - black Swan - the virgin suicides - marie antoinette - brokeback mountain - dead poets society - eternal sunshine of the spotless » Continue Reading