meaningless mess (a poem/song)

Can't trust a word you say, talked to you everyday. said you'd never leave as I watched you walk away, why do I drive everyone away? you said I'm not any better than my ex bestfriend, can't lie, can't deny. but your words still repeat in my head, engraved in my mind like all the time. you said "i'd never like you in a million years" but your actions and your words give mixed signals, malfunctioning - a fucking hypocrite. so guess what, go jerk off to your new girl and think about me while I haunt your dreams, it's not as ugly as it seems. good luck in finding someone who will actually love you for who you are, you don't have any appeal and I look at my old self who can't finish a single meal, I need some time to heal. I can't believe I thought you we're cool, I was such a fool. your a dick, and I hate the fact I miss our talks but I wish it could be with him instead of you. what was the point of you texting me that random day in the summer, that day you thought of me. is this the way things are supposed to be? I have no clue of what to do but I'll be stuck in your head instead, as your lying awake at night in your bed. you found a new girl to distract yourself from the reality that I didn't like you because 'friend' isn't enough. send me an essay over snapchat and go ahead and block me, I don't have time for your bs. I didn't read any of that.. I didn't like you while everyone thought I was in love with you but I always knew what a shame I put my trust in you. - I'm glad it's over. what a waste of time.