for context: i'm five feet four inches and about 95 pounds. i'm really skinny and flat-chested with a tiny waist, my friends pick me up and carry me around like a backpack. given these facts, if someone is going after the way i look, the first thing they'll say is something about how small i am. normally if we're friends or goofing around or whatever, it doesn't bother me. i am small, that's just ... » Continue Reading
i love valentine’s day i love pink i love red i love hearts i love love! i love telling my friends i love them i love that being true and i love letting them know. im just happy! i love love. » Continue Reading
i love valentine’s day i love pink i love red i love hearts i love love! i love telling my friends i love them i love that being true and i love letting them know. im just happy! i love love. » Continue Reading
i love valentine’s day i love pink i love red i love hearts i love love! i love telling my friends i love them i love that being true and i love letting them know. im just happy! i love love. » Continue Reading
i love valentine’s day i love pink i love red i love hearts i love love! i love telling my friends i love them i love that being true and i love letting them know. im just happy! i love love. » Continue Reading
i made a zine today! i am really proud of myself, i love creating. i had fun and i liked it even if now i don’t know what to do with it. i’d like to get better at sewing. there are a lot of clothes i want to make that are above my skill level. i think valentine’s day is a good holiday and we should hand out valentines like how elementary school kids hand them out to the whole class. i am full of l... » Continue Reading
i should preface this. i am generally not a mean person unless extremely extremely warranted, and right now i am warranted. also, this is a diary and there is not point to a diary unless you're going to talk about feelings and shit. anger is a feeling. it is a feeling that i am incredibly justified in feeling especially right now. also, there is a zero percent chance the affected parties will ever... » Continue Reading
it's incredible. he's been my best friend for so long and somehow he's avoided the absolute tidal wave (not really a pun but the analogy is on theme) that is ponyo. ponyo shaped my whole personality, i genuinely think it has been the most impactful media on me possibly ever. we're watching it together tonight. you know that thing that girls do where they go through their camera roll and show you d... » Continue Reading
hypothetically there are people reading my posts now, strangers reading my diary. i refuse to alter my feelings or my writing for others. this is a diary. i am not writing For you. i am expressing myself and you are a guest here. now that i've properly scared you away, here's some information about me. my name is clementine (clem for short) (裴η±η³). i'm 18 years old. i have three older brothers. i'm... » Continue Reading
today i didn’t see my best friend until nearly ten pm and i missed him like a dog. we’ve not had a day apart in over a month. our longest streak is about five months. over the summer, we’ll be in two different states from mid-may to early september. it will be brutal. i’m terrified i love him more than he loves me and i’m scared because my heart is bleeding on the floor and i am a soft animal and ... » Continue Reading
every time i meet some new hearing person and we talk about music, i always feel disingenuous. eventually the conversation will move on and eventually the fact that i'm deaf will come up and they will be confused and i feel like i have to explain myself, like i've done something wrong. it's always the same, like i'm an animal in the zoo. "how can you like music?" "you're deaf?" "wait, you're deaf... » Continue Reading
it's february third and i think when spring comes i will never go inside again. i want to redo my wardrobe and write more and see beauty and listen to new music and Get My Life In Order and now is the perfect time because it's february third and it's not yet spring. in spring all i'll want to do is lay in the cold grass and let the sun shine on me. i've trudged through january and i'll trudge thro... » Continue Reading