can you believe he's never watched ponyo before?

it's incredible. he's been my best friend for so long and somehow he's avoided the absolute tidal wave (not really a pun but the analogy is on theme) that is ponyo. ponyo shaped my whole personality, i genuinely think it has been the most impactful media on me possibly ever. we're watching it together tonight.

you know that thing that girls do where they go through their camera roll and show you different pictures? that shit makes my heart happy every time. i don't care if it's boring i want you to show me what you thought was important enough to take a picture of. i want to know what you think is important and i want to share that with you. girls share pieces of each other and put them on display to bond. look, this is me, this is my cat, look at him sitting, this is important to me, do you think it's important? i'm opening myself for you through a picture that acts as a proxy and i hope you find this important too. 

owen and i are like this too i think. it's a little different. we do this with media. i like this album you should listen (know me). i saw this show let's watch it together (let's experience part of myself together). it's such a good part of friendships. i am an absolute sucker for this.

honestly, this is how i weed out who will be a friend and who will be an acquaintance. do i feel comfortable sharing myself with them? would i be embarrassed to tell them about something i genuinely like that is by extension part of me? a few days ago, i asked a friend of a friend if they wanted to see what music i like and they said "honestly, no" and they don't know but i'm certain we won't be close now. it's not just that they said that, it's a lot of little things combined, but that was the nail in the coffin. 

i'm going to share ponyo with owen tonight. i'm going to point out my favorite parts and he'll say 'oh i see. this is why you're like this'. i am going to feel loved.