today i submitted my portfolio even though it was scary (big deal) and i listened to donatella by lady gaga and i hung out with ming and germ and owen and i love those guys actually so much you guys don’t get it i love my friends so much. my favorite thing in the world is sticking my hand out and waiting for them to reciprocate because they each do it in different ways. owen holds my hand, ming sl... » Continue Reading
i love being deaf i am unable to be deprecated from my deaf identity not only physically like my body but also culturally i am Deaf with a big D i am a Deaf Person and i wouldn’t want it any other way. BUT. my least favorite thing is when my batteries will die in the middle of a social event with only hearing people and i don’t have a replacement battery and everyone else knows what’s going on and... » Continue Reading
they should make march the new year. i dont want to have the reset day be in the winter where everything is still dead and cold and grey it feels incorrect. every time march rolls around since the first march of The Disease it feels like a Big Big Event. it's been nearly three years good lord. what the Fuck. reading my diaries from the beginning is an out of body experience. i wish it was warmer n... » Continue Reading
this weekend my friends and i played cards and dnd and we went to dunkin doughnuts and absolutely blasted abba in the car and they let me draw beetles on their hands and i am so happy that i have them because otherwise i’d have spent all weekend anxiously spiraling into madness because my deadline is So Soon and it is the scariest thing that I’ve already done the hard part of. all i need to do is ... » Continue Reading
this weekend my friends and i played cards and dnd and we went to dunkin doughnuts and absolutely blasted abba in the car and they let me draw beetles on their hands and i am so happy that i have them because otherwise i’d have spent all weekend anxiously spiraling into madness because my deadline is So Soon and it is the scariest thing that I’ve already done the hard part of. all i need to do is ... » Continue Reading
today my friend said me and owen are “attached at the hearing aid”. bitches are ENVIOUS of me and my best friend in the world. he vowed to become stronger by lifting me up and throwing me around. the mountain goats really popped off with damn these vampires. really. oh yeah. good song. i have a meeting about my portfolio tomorrow (scary) but i am so so brave so i can do it. spring is soon spring i... » Continue Reading
i always dread having to talk about my parents. i mean, “my mom’s dead” is kind of a bummer, let alone “and my dad was so abusive that my brother had to remove us from the house when i was 11 otherwise i’d be dead too” definitely kills the vibe. obviously my brothers mean the world to me and i wouldn’t trade them for anything, but sometimes i think about how it would be to have a conversation with... » Continue Reading
i always dread having to talk about my parents. i mean, “my mom’s dead” is kind of a bummer, let alone “and my dad was so abusive that my brother had to remove us from the house when i was 11 otherwise i’d be dead too” definitely kills the vibe. obviously my brothers mean the world to me and i wouldn’t trade them for anything, but sometimes i think about how it would be to have a conversation with... » Continue Reading
i always dread having to talk about my parents. i mean, “my mom’s dead” is kind of a bummer, let alone “and my dad was so abusive that my brother had to remove us from the house when i was 11 otherwise i’d be dead too” definitely kills the vibe. obviously my brothers mean the world to me and i wouldn’t trade them for anything, but sometimes i think about how it would be to have a conversation with... » Continue Reading
i’ve been listening to so much charli xcx lately. yuck has been on repeat for days. definitely not complaining. trophy, next level charli, boys, and twice are also on the playlist (if you even care). actually it’s been one playlist on repeat this week. charli, rebecca black’s smash hit new album, that one ice spice song (yeah it’s stuck in my head too i KNOW it’s so good omg), slut pop by kim pet... » Continue Reading
applying for this program is the easiest yet scariest thing ive done. like, ive already done my art. i just have to put it into a portfolio and upload it. the hard part is done i just have to get rejected. i don't know if i'll get rejected yet. it's just that the program is really competitive and i don't think i'm as talented as the other people who are applying. what do i do if i get rejected? i ... » Continue Reading
i love valentine’s day i love pink i love red i love hearts i love love! i love telling my friends i love them i love that being true and i love letting them know. im just happy! i love love. » Continue Reading