i stim!! what of it?!?!?! >:OOOO lol jk but i'm autistic and stim at school. heres some of my favorite stims rocking back and forth against the chair!!! #1!!! rubbing my fingers on or picking at my plastic rings adjusting my rings checking the time (visual stim) messing with my kandi bracelets looking at (visual) or touching/messing with keychains/my school ID looking at pinterest! (visual) » Continue Reading
fashion is one of my newest special interests. not only does it absorb my thoughts quite a bit but i'm realizing the link between my special interest and my other autistic traits. firstly, my style is becoming rather abundant in patterns, textures, and especially colors. i enjoy bracelets (especially pony bead bracelets) not only aesthetically but they allow me to visually stim by looking at the s... » Continue Reading
and so my senior year begins with a fart :p most of my classes require me to actually pay attention as opposed to last year where only 2/4 classes a day would require me to do too much. every day i had at least one class where i did little to nothing. but now since i should probably be uping my level of responsibility in school my classes are generally harder. thats fine, not like i didn't expect ... » Continue Reading
ok so my summer job went alright. my supervisor was this older religious lady and honestly, didn't like her. she was lazy, drove recklessly, and liked to preach at us :/ whatevs though. i had a cool autistic bestie coworker who kept me sane. dawg have you ever met someone who liked something as obscure as you do?? THEY ALSO LIKED UTSU-P!!! never in my life have i met someone who liked something so... » Continue Reading
okok so it was a pretty smooth process joining back with my old summer job. its a smaller team this year, but still with the high standard of what we needed to do last summer (90,000 computers needed to be clean in 8 weeks between 80 ppl > » Continue Reading
in december, i took an edible far too strong for my brain. it was a gummy, which melted in a jar and its resin content spiked. it resulted in a terrifying greening-out where i realized i was alive, and felt entirely disconnected from the world and my body. i realized i was alive and it scared me deeply. in those following months, i had been having intense, daily struggles with derealization and th... » Continue Reading
make t-shirts, heat transfer paper or painted on or embroidered? develop a full story 4 my oc's get my community service hours up read 5 books make our (me & bf's) 1 year anniversary (June 2nd) a blast!!! develop my fashion to be what i envision (already underway!) sing karaoke make matching bracelets for all my friends go to an aquarium » Continue Reading
i just did the last final i'll have to do for the rest of the year and i think it sucked all the energy out of me. i was testing from 8am to 1pm. luckily i had lunch so i could eat but some people couldn't. anyways i'm crazy burned out from this week studying for this exam i'm sure i didn't do fantastic on but its done and i'm done YEEAAAAAHHHHH kinda sad that since i'm a junior, this is my last y... » Continue Reading
so i fell down the fashion rabbithole officially around last august. it was almost exclusively cutecore. pinkpinkpink, and it stayed like that for about six months until i started to integrate little moga moga kinds of cute jp & kr trinkets. then i got into nostalgic things. sooo my style is mixing up, both cute, but also with big 2000's influences, as well as 2010's nostalgia (pre-2016) so imagin... » Continue Reading