and i'm bedbound. i dreamed i was someone else. i woke up and saw my skin and felt abject sadness. crisps for breakfast. three more hours til i can take my nighttime meds and go back to sleep. i have one wish and i think it's probably against community guidelines to post it here. just gotta get to tomorrow so i can get to the day after that. » Continue Reading
there are places that show up in dreams over and over again. i fly down the A376 and float above the rooftops of the magnolia centre. away from the people, i feel safe. there's my childhood home, where i eternally escape some form of trouble or another. there's my friend's childhood home, the hallways of which shrink about my body until i'm claustrophobic. the grand union canal where i used to go ... » Continue Reading
juni / june / juniper i was in a guitar band for a while then i was a DJ in nightclubs now I'm trying to strike a balance I write songs at the piano and I'm trying to find a way to bring the dance styles i love to spin to songs with verbose lyrics about religion and mental illness using an MPC and as much executive function as my broken little brain will allow nostalgic for an internet that was » Continue Reading
dull monochrome monotone drudge of the day after day after day after day boxed in, lost in work, rinse, repeat same grey faces same grey street every one of those faces is feeling the same toil with no rest pointless test but every one of those faces got something to save 'em their own idea of distraction that's worth entertaining » Continue Reading
little moments catch a smile from a stranger dogs trotting past in the street they don't know how happy they make people the smell of doughnuts in the air glimpse your reflection in a car door and damn you lookin' tidy today the bus driver is in a good mood and a nice tie a call from a friend you haven't heard from in time kind words from your mother sh » Continue Reading
Drip drop drip rap the droplets on the bins outside my window Tick tock tick I've only got so long before I need to wake Drip drop drip is the soundtrack to my dream of distant slumber Tick tock tick tock tick it soon adds up, adds up to a night I'm just so busy busy busy I'm a very busy bee I'm always feeling tired but I never get to sleep My mind is always racing Even when I » Continue Reading
I ate some gummies last night and woke up this morning with a profile on here and a bunch of psychoactive tea herbs ordered... Feels like this site is the best thing I've found online in a hot minute. I love that there's no algorithm, and no ads, and we're given the creative freedom to code what we want. It's nice to use social media that doesn't feel like it's trying to sell me my worst fears, o... » Continue Reading