i miss my old friend. we almost completely stopped talking. i started distancing myself after she basically told me to find new friends. i guess it's because she started hanging out with this other girl and she no longer needed me. why did she need me when she was alone? anyways im glad she had somebody else, thats not the issue at all, i do realise that i sometimes tend to be dependent on other p... » Continue Reading
so tonight i had the weirdest dream ever and i'm going to tell you abt it. so lmk what you think!! so the dream started off with me being at some sort of event in this street (this part is a bit blurry i only remember parts of it) and there were two guys both competing against each other trying to win me over and i knew i had to make a choice i just couldn't bring myself to do it either because i ... » Continue Reading
hey i don't know who actually reads this sort of blog but if you are, and you're wondering what i'm up to you're more than welcome to keep reading;) so today was a good day i think, i was expecting my new shoes but they didn't come in, i was kinda disappointed ngl. i'm watching Coraline for like the third time in a month and i just started rewatching Bojack Horseman too. also i started posting on ... » Continue Reading
disclaimer: this is going to be long and it's a bit creepy so the dream starts with me going to my boyfriends house which was actually a former school that looked just like my elementary school (keep in mind that i don't have a bf). so i tell him that that i saw something in the basement and that i needed him to come check on it so we head to the showers (which are in the school basement for some... » Continue Reading
a little disclaimer before i start: this is not meant to be scary but there is one part where i kinda go into detail and there is going to be the talk of de4th so yeah, i just wanted to put this out there. also sorry, this is a bit long! » Continue Reading
ok so the other night i had a super vivid dream which is not that weird for me because i tend to have those a lot but for the past two weeks i couldn't have one. i rely a lot on my dreams because i find that through these i connect to my subconscious and inner self a lot and some times they also "predict" future events. at first it creeped me out but now i love it and i actually don't mind having... » Continue Reading
today i stuck to my routine and i actually felt pretty good. i still have a few things left to do but other than that i'm all done for the day, and it's not even 6pm lmao. in like an hour or so i have to hang with my friend but idk she's not answering (since i texted her abt the time) and it's giving me a bit of anxiety and probably it's because i feel like i don't have any type of control on thos... » Continue Reading
lately i found myself liking having a routine. not a strict "do the same things every second" type of routine, more of a "i follow a type of pattern that helps me focus" routine. i think it makes me happier, more focused and overall less anxious. it's hard having a routine especially if you're like me and do stuff as you please. but i like the idea of it so i'll definitely try to stick to it. » Continue Reading
i'm starting a new journey where i'm trying to heal myself from past traumas and bad relationship but also unlearn all toxic behaviours that i had. i'm finding unlearning the toxic coping mechanisms really hard especially since i have a very addictive personality and for all the ppl like me i think this could be relatable. i feel like i was forced to grow up and support myself since a young age an... » Continue Reading
Never be fiends with someone who'll throw you under the bus just to get peoples validation. Especially when you've gave them everything you had. they don't deserve you and this shows how much they care about your well being. if at the first chance they get they bail or when things get hard they bail: LEAVE them. no matter if they've been your friend or partner for years. I recently had an experien... » Continue Reading