"Eating Luci's Wallet"
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Category: Life
No school, presidents day. I woke up in a particularly good mood, as the sun graced my town with it's presence. I had the window open all day, no net, no nothing - just my face staring out into the street. The crows were around, and we spoke. Lots of sparrows at my window. It's a little chilly out - 0°C - but I'm good in the cold when I'm not hyperglycemic I spoke to emo and espurr, and we had a g... » Continue Reading
Category: Food and Restaurants
When I’m an adult, these are the things I’ll buy to eat Eggs - 3 per day, every day Cheese - feta, sharp cheddar, farmers cheese, Mozzarella balls, smoked Gouda, Parmesan - all whole, in bricks (feta can be crumbled ig) Nori/seaweed snacks - I’ll have lots of flavors, and plan to eat one per day Jar of peanut butter - to freeze into sheets, or eat plain, or to eat with random things Big jar of pla... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
In a world where misery is eternal, there is nothing better to do than to use it. My chest rises and falls, my heart plays in quarter time. I don’t need to look in the mirror anymore, I can feel my pupils get large - the light burns them more. The light of my screen bothers me. I don’t feel like I’m acting rationally, thinking rationally. Saying this feels right, but I question if it’s genuine. Do... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Today my small town had been coated in yet another layer of snow, another cold day, another day to stay inside. Surprisingly enough, I'm comfortable. I'm currently able to visit downstairs as much as I'd like, to get any food I want. I think I may be gaining weight - but that's alright with me. I like some extra insulation- that is, if it did go to insulation. It mostly goes to my ches » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Morning. 08:05 I had woken up from another dream about Legend. at 6:30 Sharp, and marched my way downstairs to do my cleaning. And Scary was there, sitting on the couch in her morning robe. So I went straight back up. Just a couple ago, at 8, I went back down, prepared for Scary's » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
Legend keeps showing up in my dreams. Keeps both befriending and rejecting me. He's a source of safety and a big threat. I don't know why my brain cares so much about him - but i suppose he hasn't made it too clear if he just doesn't care about me or if there's something else going on. But it's clear I'm different to him, I think. He has straight up ignored me many times. He always glances my way,... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
The firefighters were so cool!! Career day was a blast, I am most interested in the people doing U.S. fish and wildlife service, and some sort of research in Antarctica. I got lots of cool stuff - first aid kits, birdwatching guides, an American flag (huh??). The people were really nice. I then had my knee doctor appointment. They prescribed me some anti-inflammatory drugs and said i should get ph... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I woke up. I watched Moomin valley. I ate eggs, and went to school Threw a pastry at Emo, speedran my lit homework, threw a muffin at Espurr. During the break, I studied for AP Bio with Smart Man. Then I played harmonica, hiding in the stairwell. My AP Bio quiz went well, Physics also » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Hello my feathered friends Today was pretty alright. I stayed home all day because the 45 fiber gummies really got to me, which means I skipped Coach Diddy's one and only health class this week. Pretty happy about that achievement. My mom left home for a couple hours, and I got to practice my raven call and quads. My injured knee still » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Woke up to my blood sugar off the charts. Well, okay. Took a shower, put on my black button up and the wrinkled trench coat I borrowed from my dad. I like it a lot, I'm not sure if he'll ever get it back. It's well made, with anchor buttons (it's sort of a pea coat.. trench coat.. combination?) and many, many pockets. The school day g » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Today was like any other. Yesterday I had told myself I can waste the day hiding, I have tomorrow to do things. Today I spent the day in bed, as the day before, telling myself I had enough done yesterday. I've been too scared to move. Too scared to make a noise. I live in the screen » Continue Reading
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