10-2-25, Monday

Woke up to my blood sugar off the charts. Well, okay.

Took a shower, put on my black button up and the wrinkled trench coat I borrowed from my dad. I like it a lot, I'm not sure if he'll ever get it back. It's well made, with anchor buttons (it's sort of a pea coat.. trench coat.. combination?) and many, many pockets. 

The school day goes by, today wasn't too bad. During the break, two friends invited me over to their biology lab and gave me some treats. They weren't the best, to taste or to my well-being, but I do appreciate their effort and kindness. They're good friends, and I need to find something to give them in return. I wonder how emo is doing.

I'm still scared of Legend. Scary, scary man, yet the nicest guy I've ever met. I can't trust my judgements on Legend anymore, our interactions have been too intense. Just being near him amplifies any survival instinct past the point of no return. As much as I wish he was my friend, I have no idea who he is.

I ate a good 3 tablespoons of salt in one sitting. Followed by 225 g of fiber in gummy supplements. I don't know what I'm doing to myself anymore. 

I should do my homework, especially my math homework. I'll do that on Wednesday. I don't mean to have such a passive, unhappy tone at all times. There are plenty of good things out here. I like my bus rides home and I like my friends. I like my morning eggs and drawing blood for my glucose tests. I like my sustainable engineering teacher and my robotics group. I just really don't like where my life is right now. 

But that's alright, soon enough, I'll get the opportunity to change things. 19:27