Holy shit bro my visa application is genuinely moving forward im fucking terrified if it doesnt go all the way through im going to cry. its so exciting and nervewracking bro Also been arguing w my managers over something i strongly disagree with to the point my managers manager stepped in, argued with him and now i have a formal meeting with him in a few weeks. There's so much going on where i wor... » Continue Reading
small one but whilst i was gaming w my sisters bf i was streaming then i went in vr and played vrchat w my friends but i was crashing so just left and passed out but forgot i was streaming and left it on all night and one of my followers whos super loyal joined and said hi but i was LEEEP so i only saw when i woke up. i streamed 12 hours lmao i was prolly only awake for 2 of them hahahahah » Continue Reading
SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED RECENTLY SO last night we went to leaving drinks for my buddy who left the company. It was at a mid/high upscale bar and pub, its really nice and we booked tables outside so we were all chillin and drinking then the people who only stayed for like an hour all headed out so it was just like the ppl who were here for the entire ride yknow so us 6 are drinking bonding talking exc... » Continue Reading
Hi sisters im a lil high rn but i had an amazing thought for a halloween costume i go as the weekend and my buddy goes as friday like the movie chris tucker so we'll be "friday and the weeknd" its amazing ik i just need to get real friends then i can do it » Continue Reading
bro im so sad she has such a sweet smile i miss her all i can think about is her smile rn bro im cryin anyways i sent my passport off to get renewed which is good, all i need to do is go to the bank for my trust fund and book (and obv take) my exams. those 2 things done ill officially be ready to get the fuck outta this country. im hungry im gonna make a sandwich. also i got paintballing saturday... » Continue Reading
guys do u remember how in a blog post some time ago i said i felt directionless? I no longer feel this way ive found new meaning and applied for a literal once in a lifetime opportunity. I have no idea if i will get accepted, it's likely i will not but if i do my life will completely change and i'll never look back. I have new drive, im gonna book and do my final 2 exams that ive been putting off ... » Continue Reading
did 3 edibles last night and i was literally flying bro like i was on a spiritual trip, i ended up throwing up sooooo much lmao now we know 2 edibles is the sweet spot hahaha but anyways i called in sick today for the first time in months. I was a little sick but mostly depressed again. I'm usually good and i dont suffer from depression, its just every few months it'll come around and hit and i'l... » Continue Reading
You thought i forgot about this but I DIDNT well i mean i did a bit but last night i had a dream (nightmare ??) and it prompted me to write about it here so many things happened in the dream. I had really long hair for some reason, i was on the bus and it was driving super violently and someone knew me (i think she was my aunt or something) and she was like hey saile can u move over pls and she sh... » Continue Reading
Tried smonkin weed for da first time shit was wild everything was slow motion and i felt like a noodle bro i just swaying and movin and i ate two burritos and slept like 11 hours my buddy was high as well it was so funny apparently i kept goin on long tangents that had NOTHJING to do w our conversation ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ i was like "does that answer ur question?" and he goes "I DIDNT ASK U ANYTHING" » Continue Reading
bro i desperately really need to find something to be passionate about again. anything ill take anything just as long as its productive. I cant keep being empty and shit i feel awful. i lost passion for streaming, for games, for editing videos, for everything. I could try to pick up my old hobbies like languages and art and music writing/producing. man. i miss when i made people feel safe. now peo... » Continue Reading
Song of the week babyyyy it's put it on repeat and listen for 5 minutes and get lost in the beat loop bro its so nice i just come home from work put it on my speaker and do whatever stuff i got to do (; 2010 by Earl Sweatshirt » Continue Reading
dude so when i think about me and the amount of people that dont rock w me vs the amount that do and the KIND of people that fuck w me i start to think maybe i am unironically toxic. or maybe people think im toxic but i was joking and they didnt see it. but i cant be toxic right because i know me, and im literally one of the best people i know and ive met hundreds of people at this point. I didnt ... » Continue Reading