hellooooooo i am still alive yes and ive been busy (busy meaning dead) but i have a new job, im saving to go to CA and saving to get driving lessons. i got a new 3ds xl and i love it. i can stream my pc to it and theres sm homebrew shit i even patched the online so miiverse (the built in 3ds social media) works and ive been talking to ppl its so fuckin funny lmaooooo. but its fire. i just need to ... » Continue Reading
hello there im still alive ! not much to say i mean there is but i cant remember it all rn i started writring this because im in a call with my friend hes doing something and im sitting here just kinda staring at my wall thinking about my life currently and how repetitive everything is and ive been having more suicidal thoughts ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ im making a game tho. learning unreal engine 5 and slowly working... » Continue Reading
i see all those memes on insta like "i cant keep thuggin this out" and its funny like yeah but bro i cant anymore lmaooooo i cant thug it out anymore either bro im crashing like a shitty jenga tower idk if im insane or what the way i never react to things but it all builds up, i was just thinking about how negative everyone is about everything. like anything. anything that exists that a person cou... » Continue Reading
My sisters party was on the weekend just gone. I didnt wanna go at first bc i hate leaving my house and socialising now. But i went and it was okay. At lunch this girl sat next to me who i didnt recognize so i was super awkward n basically kinda ignored her it was only later in the night i realized i had met her before lmao so halfway through the karaoke, i was standing in the corner just vibin an... » Continue Reading
the and everyone is worried.im not sure if im in denial or like the situation isnt that serious and subconsciously ik that so thats why im not overreacting. However, my papa whos like idek 65 or sum is in hospital for the rona and everyone is worried. I am worried but i cant process it correctly i dont think ? or maybe i am processing it in a fine healthy way thats just my own way. and by proces... » Continue Reading
bro i miss her so much i fucked up i cant believe i fucked up like that i dont think i will ever feel that way about someone again or someone will feel that way about me again. and no im not saying like ohhh im scared no one will ever love me again no im not saying that im sure someone out there would love me but i bro i dont think i will ever feel that way again. i was too immature when we were t... » Continue Reading
so many sucky things happened since i went to go do chores. lets list some shall we ! i got my hand stuck in a trash can twice somehow ripped a bit of my skin off whilst cleaning the bathroom???? hit my arm/hand at such weird angles on hard metal (; whilst i was pouring water in a pot the kettle opened and spilled water all over the stove and floor after mopping it up i accidently stepped on said... » Continue Reading
idk why but this entire evening (its 11pm now) ive been randomly spontaneously crying I am not depressed i know that i am not but the rest prolly match idk but i always get like this all randomly sad and crying it usually happens like once every few months lmao its happened every few months since my ex n i brokeup lmaoooooo i actually feel like » Continue Reading
Holy shit bro my visa application is genuinely moving forward im fucking terrified if it doesnt go all the way through im going to cry. its so exciting and nervewracking bro Also been arguing w my managers over something i strongly disagree with to the point my managers manager stepped in, argued with him and now i have a formal meeting with him in a few weeks. There's so much going on where i wor... » Continue Reading
small one but whilst i was gaming w my sisters bf i was streaming then i went in vr and played vrchat w my friends but i was crashing so just left and passed out but forgot i was streaming and left it on all night and one of my followers whos super loyal joined and said hi but i was LEEEP so i only saw when i woke up. i streamed 12 hours lmao i was prolly only awake for 2 of them hahahahah » Continue Reading
SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED RECENTLY SO last night we went to leaving drinks for my buddy who left the company. It was at a mid/high upscale bar and pub, its really nice and we booked tables outside so we were all chillin and drinking then the people who only stayed for like an hour all headed out so it was just like the ppl who were here for the entire ride yknow so us 6 are drinking bonding talking exc... » Continue Reading