bro

bro i desperately really need to find something to be passionate about again. anything ill take anything just as long as its productive. I cant keep being empty and shit i feel awful. i lost passion for streaming, for games, for editing videos, for everything. I could try to pick up my old hobbies like languages and art and music writing/producing. man. i miss when i made people feel safe. now people tell me to my face im an asshole or the mean one. everyone tells me i dont care about anything and that was always wrong but now its started to be true and it terrifies me. 

if someone asked me what im doing w my life i wouldnt have an answer for them. ive always had an answer before but im running outta answers