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You thought i forgot about this but I DIDNT well i mean i did a bit but last night i had a dream (nightmare ??) and it prompted me to write about it here

so many things happened in the dream. I had really long hair for some reason, i was on the bus and it was driving super violently and someone knew me (i think she was my aunt or something) and she was like hey saile can u move over pls and she shit in the corner of the bus ?!!!!?!?!?? I was only a few stops from home and i was like "i need to get tf outta here man im almost home"

the main thing was about my ex tho lmao i have reoccurring dreams about her and they usually make me sad, this one i was like idek how to explain, it was like a video game showing health bars and stuff cus she had left old shirts and things and it was like "x amount of washes until it stops smelling of her" and stuff like that and i was at home just fucking cryinnnnng dude like crying so much i havent cried this much in like a year or two. And then also i felt like i was aimless and not doing anything worthwhile in life lmao. Idk man but i woke up crying and missing her and its not the first time and i doubt it'll be the last time. 

So unfair how this is still happening after so much time, i go to sleep, dream about her, feel sad, wake up crying or sad. lmao wtf hahahah

but tbf i was thinking about her before i went to bed and i was sad, i was playing minecraft with a good friend and i just kept thinking of her and getting sadder and sadder till i wasnt talking anymore and only speaking when he actually asked a question

anyways whoever is reading this i hope u have a far better day than me and happy easter (;