okay hello

guys

do u remember how in a blog post some time ago i said i felt directionless?

I no longer feel this way ive found new meaning and applied for a literal once in a lifetime opportunity. I have no idea if i will get accepted, it's likely i will not but if i do my life will completely change and i'll never look back. I have new drive, im gonna book and do my final 2 exams that ive been putting off literally years lmao.

Today im also gonna renew my passport and ive got the whole week off so im gonna stream whilst high in VR with my buddies. Im excited, overwhelmed, nervous and hopeful. This whole thing was impulsive and i was very overwhelmed at first but im happy because its better than feeling empty directionless and bored. I have a new goal.

An attainable but distant goal.

My mother (havent spoken to her in months and havent seen her in like a year or more) would be incredibly proud (finally). I have not told my family, they dont need to know i dont need any negativity right now, i get enough from myself. I've only told a few friends who are very supportive. 

Pray for me guys i really hope this works out. And you know what? even if it doesn't that's okay because i know i tried my best and gave it my all. I'll be happy and id still had made progress in life (;

I have many things to plan because i already had plans in motion + this new thing i have to really think it out and write out a gameplan. I've been freestyling everything so far which all things considered has really been working hahah but i need to outline a plan so i have a more concrete idea of wtf im doing, i also need to sort my finances/investments out

Okay i just wanted to put that in writing. ily all 1 of you readers, u stay safe bye bye thank you for reading malin ! i hope ur good too. u did amazing with ur exams very proud of u, i had no doubt ever, genuinely.