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piss nd shit, chronic overthinker
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me trying to convince myself that my posts are so avant garde redpilled based mommy milker toe sucking when theyre rlly just streams of conciousness of really shallow concepts tied together by sleep deprivation (im being silly again) » Continue Reading
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i feel numb, i know you can read this and im not sure how i feel about it. i feel numb and i know itll be gone soon and with that ill feel embarrassed and foolish for ever feeling this way. as if the moment my humors change so does my understanding, then even i wont understand myself and ill be alone besides me again. im not me. but i am and i know that but sometimes im just not me, and sometimes ... » Continue Reading
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my former best friend reached out to me again recently. she apologized for what conflict we had before, she apologized for what she had done wrong and i did too. i think we are acquaintances now, maybe even friends, i dont know. it feels right yet not at the same time, it feels late and overdue and stewed for two years but i cant tell if that bettered the flavor. i dont know, i pushed her down so ... » Continue Reading
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how i feel anymore. life is a blue and im on the verge of fully becoming conscious that im barely clinging on to not spiraling again. mess is piling back in my room, heaps of shit i swore id clean up tomorrow months ago. i havent emptied by trash in about as long. i sleep as the sun rises. i never leave my room without plans. no clean clothes, all consuming dreams. i cry for the littlest reasons a... » Continue Reading
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i'm not usually a sap but he's driven a tap into my guts so heres a little of what couldn't be caught in his bucket. call young love, fleeting or foolish or what you want it to be. as a victim of it i cannot see past what has consumed my entire world and taken its place. quite literally the light of my life he burns so bright that i swear he'll sear the skin off my face if i hold him too close. ye... » Continue Reading
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i'm travelling!! but i wont say were :) maybe. there's a charm in being squished in a little hotel room with friends and spending your days walking hours in an unfamiliar city. you bustle in your own time surrounded by words you don't understand and roll up at night in shared blankets and beds. it feels different to do this by choice and by luck. i'm really greatful. we've been doing a lot of urb... » Continue Reading
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i think i kissed my boyfriend at school for the last time, in uniform at least. i turned in my final assessed project, btec art and design, it had been haunting me for a good few months. im having my checkout sheet signed by all the teachers so that the school is sure i haven't stolen anything (i have, an entire mannequin.) my last class is tomorrow. it's only one block so i can probably leave ea... » Continue Reading
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i feel so sad i could dissolve into nothing and still feel the weight of a thousand meaningless boulders pinning me down. why did it have to hit now? why me. i know why it's here but surely i'm not that sensitive? why did i have to be triggered today of all days and why must the people i care most about blow me off now? nothing matters other than them and now they're ceasing to matter too because ... » Continue Reading
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is it because i don't constantly cry out for help that my feelings dont matter, or that my actions don't matter, or my efforts don't need thanking because i'm always there. always disposable always at your disposition to fill in where you lack without deserving any compensation. just a simple thank you? how are you doing? are you sure? thats so cool. just because you cant see i'm fragile or i don'... » Continue Reading
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wish i was a cool character in a fantasy world travelling across nations with my misfit gaggle, learning to love each others companionship as we conquer hardships together, discovering treasure but also ourselves as we venture. but nooooo reality says go to school and earn money to contribute to society and the economy and settle down and make a family NOOO. follow ur dreams AS LONG AS THEY ADHERE... » Continue Reading
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