baby's first political thoughts

wish i was a cool character in a fantasy world travelling across nations with my misfit gaggle, learning to love each others companionship as we conquer hardships together, discovering treasure but also ourselves as we venture. but nooooo reality says go to school and earn money to contribute to society and the economy and settle down and make a family NOOO. follow ur dreams AS LONG AS THEY ADHERE TO LAWS AND LOGIC AND CONVENTION.

there are so many things i wish i were other than myself and so many places i dream about. will i ever be satisfied hahahhaha ;-; i just wanna be a nimble and mysterious elf darting the forest edges, or a giant orc trying to fit into a human town, or a dragon hoarding its treasure, etc, etc, etc.

life is so much more than just survive, whether it be the build shelter-fight for your life kind or the navigate modern society-fight for your life kind. joy brings meaning but what joy can be found in a world where your worth is how much you contribute to a system and its drilled into you since childhood. in this place why is joy primarily what we can have? joy is what we can buy, either material or the time we can afford to spend with people who bring us joy, often doing things we buy as well.

but how would we live otherwise, isn't it just human nature to operate like this at this point. with all good and equality a big group can strive to support it is still so easily torn down by the drastic actions of a single person.

honestly, it's not that deep. so why must it have such a terrible effect?

OH WOE OH WOE IS ME

OH NO THE WORLD IS TERRIBLE

OOH AAH NOTHING MATTERS BOOHOO

but sick of this world, would a fantasy world be any different? how long before the novelty wears off and i feel the exact same there as i did here. all i can think up are the systems humans have instilled and endured over history so i can't really make up a new one.

OH NO PROFOUND SADNESS

(continued dramatic sobbing of the theatrical kind. tragic music plays as the world explodes to a giant nuclear fart. zoom in on the colossal butthole.)

i dont know anymore man, it's one thing to think and another thing to do. sticking to the program is so much easier and we're programmed to find it more rewarding. GUILTY AS CHARGED