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no one can see you cry
Category: Blogging
Most of the places we used to be at together don't even exist anymore. Just like us. There's not even "us" anymore. I know, I know. There never was an "us". Not like that. But we were friends, weren't we? I'm not even sure we are anymore. Are we? I don't know if we even can. Yeah. Whatever. That doesn't matter. It's so weird thinking that you may turn in no more than a bittersweet memory. I really... » Continue Reading
i thought you thought of me better
Category: Blogging
I really thought we were friends. that's what hurts i guess. You just dissappear like if nothing and then pretend me to act like everything's fine? i told you what I'd understand if you didn't say anything. And I'm not bothering you. I really am not. I hate you. I hate how you reacted and what a shitty friend you were. You had already stabbed my back, but when I gave you my heart you didn't even h... » Continue Reading
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I really miss you
Category: Blogging
i should stop missing you. but sometimes i get too high. you started reacting to my messages today. why. do you hate me? i was interrupted when writing by a lady asking for money. i promise that when I'm famous and rich I'll give money to people who care for bunnies. that's the only cause I'm passionate about, but if i get like actually really really rich then I'll donate to others too :) i looke... » Continue Reading
all in my head
Category: Blogging
sometimes i still think about you. remember the things you used to like. to say. to think. I miss you. But you don't want to see me again, and I've come to terms with it. if you hate me, i wish you would actually dissappear. because you're still around, still like some of my shit, still send me the bare minimum. But why? Are we even friends anymore? I honestly don't know. And I'll never know becau... » Continue Reading
Crushed like a bug in the ground
Category: Blogging
i do miss your friendship. i miss the silly daily fun with you. But you hate me. You don't have the strength to cut it off and you don't have the bravery to talk. It never mattered to you, at all. I never mattered to you. I want to talk more, but I can't concentrate. There's too much noise, too much people. I want to be alone. » Continue Reading
11.07.25
Category: Blogging
Sometimes I hear bells inside my head. Everything feels sharp and cold sometimes. I have things to say and write but no time. I'll write more later. i am scared of tomorrow. but nothing may happen. that's just fine too. my dreams are always messy. i have had no time to do shit today. I want to be free. i have too much to do » Continue Reading
Fool
Category: Blogging
i really did love you. i probably always well. you've been the love of my life without even loving me back. i know theres wounds that only time can heal. at least my wound is finally healing now, you see? i knew that to finally let it close I'd have to tell you. and honestly? I'll be fine. the only thing that did hurt me is that i thought you were my friend. i thought you cared about me as your fr... » Continue Reading
the things that you (don't) say hurt me most of the time
Category: Blogging
i love you. i still love you. that's the problem. i want you to notice that I'm not around, but i don't just want you to notice, i want you to care. i know you can feel the tension. but why won't you say anything at all? do you hate me? couldn't you have the guts to tell me? if you actually hated me you would've actually cut contact,, I guess? so you don't? then what's up. it drives me insane. say... » Continue Reading
thinking
Category: Blogging
welp. i wish you didn't hate me. i wish you said something . you really must hate me after all. i guess my first mistake was believing you didn't. at this point, it's whatever. I'll keep moving on and forward, and you'll do the same. at least you didn't ever give me a fake hope or anything. I've gone through worse, so I'll get over it , eventually. just kinda sucks that you just ran away like tha... » Continue Reading
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i miss you
Category: Blogging
i know it hasn't been even a week since I told you. But I miss you. you're still "there", but you feel so distant. You know I'm sensitive and I can feel it. If you don't know, maybe you just never knew me at all. Still, I miss you. The graffiti you said looked like dream and we laughed about has been covered. Will every memory with you get covered and erased by time? I ,miss laughing with you. I ... » Continue Reading
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forget
Category: Blogging
today i woke up with that characteristic pain in my heart. i wonder if you'll talk to me soon. I hope so! I'm tired. Did I dream about something? I can't remember. » Continue Reading