pretty fucking pathetic

that's what i am. a whiny baby. my life isnso fucking good, and i suffer for such stupid things. who even cares about any of that? I'm stupid for believing you ever even cared about me. The good thing is, I don't really have to see you again anymore. For real. That's super cool. I guess I'll eventually see you again at a long time event, but frankly, I don't care. You're just a random stranger now. I really don't recognize the person you are, but i guess we both never knew each other as well as we thought we did. i guess you really have to lose what you thought you had to realize what you didn't. and i never had you, not as a friend. i don't even have anything else to really say. I'm just milking the situation. or maybe my head's a mess? is being morally correct really that worth it? or are my morales just different from everyone else's? yeah, cause to me friendship goes over anything, but i guess that's not true for everyone. whatever, though. now i know who not to prioritize. I guess I'm really not angry at her? I just feel silly. I know the audio won't be anything bad I'm just not ready to hear it yet. to process it. I guess we're friends and we're totally okay it's just weird now. everything's weird. will it be weird forever from now on? well, at least I've made sure this is everyone's problem. if there's one thing about me, I'll never sink alone. I'll drag everyone down with me. But when good things happen, I'll drag everyone up with me, too. 

I need to sleep