the idea of love

love is such a wide concept. to think that where once love was, only pain can remain, is so saddening. it hurts to think of what could've been. not even for myself, but for others. i guess I'm just too passionate about doomed yaoi. why does love always have to end? or at the very least, change? i don't really know what I'm talking about anymore. still, one must keep going. 

maybe someday I'll get to actually express all of this and be free.