me and you (setting on a honeymoon)

pain. sharp. raw. i was definitely too high today (higher than i expected to be) and i was able to feel my emotions to their full extent. i won't change my mind or turn my back on myself anymore even if it costs me everything in the end. i am in too much pain and i must honor it for once. i know you think that I'm wrong and that this never meant nothing to you. 

if others can't see the pain, leaking out of my heart, as if poking out of a small hole, drop by drop , then that's their miss, their fail. i am suffering and I'm doing nothing to hide it. I'll express it one way or another, I'm tired of moving for others. from now onwards, I'll move just for myself and those that actually care about me. 

good night.